Of What Are YOU Afraid?
Friday, August 03, 2012
My fingers were shaking as I was lacing up my shoes and I could feel my heart pounding. I felt so stupid, but it was my first class in a REAL Pilates studio that was literally one block down the street from my office. I had looked in a few times when walking or jogging past, but it wasn't until I saw their flyer for a food drive that I decided to take the plunge. Everything seemed to happen just as I tried to leave - office drama, I locked myself out of my office - but I persisted. Once I got outside I felt better. When I got to the studio and saw very lean older and younger women working on what looked like upgraded medieval torture racks, my heart rate zoomed again. I was so anxious the young woman giving me instructions about the studio had to tell me three times where to put my things - it was the rack to my immediate left. DUH.
When Aliyah approached me I felt myself relax. Then I caught sight of myself in the studio mirror and every flaw I had suddenly magnified. OMG - I've become my mother with fat puffy feet, short legs and big thighs. I started to shrivel up again, and clamped my mouth shut. As if reading my mind Aliyah welcomed me saying that they work with all body types and all levels of fitness. And with that, I first put in my toe and then dove into the world of real Pilates - on equipment I've never seen (and had to work hard to keep mental images of medieval torture racks at bay). After 55 minutes of hard work and doing some of the simplest and yet most challenging moves I have ever done, I left the studio feeling long and tall. I promptly booked an additional private session and I still have 2 left from my initial introduction.
That feeling of achievement carried over today when I hit the bricks for workout 1 of the 2 scheduled for today as I train for a half marathon. It made me realize that the things of which we are afraid are usually not at big as we think, nor as insurmountable. While there are challenges and setbacks in seeking a goal- especially a big one, there are lots of fun expeiences along the way.
I'm devoting more time to running toward my positive goals, instead of away from the negative aspects along the way. Of what are YOU afraid?