Toe Tapping, Good Things are Coming Kind of a Day
Thursday, August 09, 2012
I am definitely weary but I know that is from:
1) Late night Olympics
2) Going out to dinner with di
3) the danged humidity
But - I am making a conscious effort to smile even when I am by myself in the car. And here is the really funny thing. Since this entire "sell the store" thing began, there have been so many feelings - sadness at the end of the family business, anger at Eric's clueless brother and sister, grief watching my husband go through this, frustration with his mother, etc. But I have really stood behind Eric and told him not to worry, this is all part of the plan, good things are coming, this is an opportunity, worrying can't change anything so just believe it is all happening for a reason, etc. And here's the kicker - I've started to believe it. I am more optimistic and happier than I have been in a very long time and I know it is because I am walking on the sunny side of the street.
This positive energy thing really has something to be said for itself. And while I have been in despair for a while, struggling with my prayer life, this is bringing me closer to God in an entirely new way. I truly believe that there is a plan for Eric and I and we can't change it through worrying or willpower. When you let go and let God, well it really does work. For me, for today -- windows are opening while those doors are closing. Maybe tonight is the night that I go home and he finally has news that the closing has been scheduled! That would be worthy of champagne!