To BLC 20 and beyond.........
Monday, September 17, 2012
Gee, that sounds something like, "To infinity, and beyond!" , something the character Buzz Lightyear was fond of saying in the movie "Toy Story". As I was pondering just what I wanted to get out of this round of the BLC, I decided I needed to reflect a little. This is my 5th or 6th round and in the course of all those rounds, I've come so far...........yet I still have lessons to apply.
At the end of the last round, I was within knocking distance of my goal weight. Then came summer..............a summer I'd not like to repeat any time soon..........and all those things I'd thought I'd cemented about healthy habits and how to rechannel stress eating went right out the window. I started down a slippery slope and felt I had nothing to hang onto. When it was all said and done, I'd gained back enough to put me back in a weight "ville" I said I wouldn't see again. Try as I might, and despite still communing with my fellow BLC 19 Warriors, I had a terrible time getting things into perspective. All the excuses came back into my world with a vengance, and got stuck on the replay button in my brain. All those "I'll do better tomorrow" statements came back into use, and the old cycle I thought I'd broken was back. As I slid down the slope, the yo-yo was on its way back up.
My "ah ha" moment came when some dress pants I'd purchased didn't feel good when I put them on, and I remembered that I had given my older ones to Goodwill........you know which ones those are..................the ones that are comfy, broken in, and that give a little in all the right places. So, I sat myself down, and decided then and there to fix this mess before it got as far out of hand as it has in so many of these times in the past, and the yo-yo climbed further up the string.
Good timing, Linda............BLC20 was about to start! I'm currently on day 7 of the 24 day Advocare Challenge, and my plan for the remainder of BLC20 is this:
1. Track, track, track. Every bite / drink of anything caloric is getting recorded. I'm currently starting day 8 of a streak. Remain in my calorie target range. Remain on a healthy eating plan after my 24 day challenge is up. Cleaner foods. It's worked so well!!!
2. Cardio of some kind at least 4 days a week, ST of some kind at least 2 - shooting for 3 - days a week. (My BLC Captain, Jan, is now having to be revived...................)
3. Journal........this is something I did years ago, stopped doing, and am now having a hard time getting back in to. Still deciding on the place/means (hand writing? typing? here? on paper? online journal somewhere else?) but I've tried out a variety of things this week. Only in being able to reflect on patterns can I do something to "fix" them.
Sounds pretty simple, eh? This *should* be simple. We have all the tools available to us, especially here on SparkPeople, and the support I get from this team........these wonderful Warriors, is incredible. My worst enemy remains the lady in the mirror.
The positives I've taken from this past Summer of the Slippery Slope - and yes, there WERE positives - are these:
1. I recognized sooner what I was doing to myself and stopped it before the consequences were 20lbs. to lose again rather than 10.
2. I remembered why I wanted to be in my goal range and this time it wasn't because of anything else or anyone else but the lady in the mirror.
3. I realized much sooner that I *didn't* want to continue to self-destruct.
4. - most important of all - I didn't beat the lady in the mirror up this time by telling her how awful she was............I congratulated her for getting through the summer in one piece, for being strong enough to hold up a whole lot of people, and for reaching out to grab the only branch seen on the slope to stop her slide.
Is this plan just for the BLC 20? Nope............I have to remind myself that, for a food addict like me, this plan of mine that is so simple yet so complex at the same time, has to be and imbedded part of me. The Lady In the Mirror has to be like Buzz........willing to take this all "To infinity and beyond." !