Ohhh snap...it's getting real!
Monday, January 14, 2013
So, with some prodding from a fellow sparker, (Ang
) I'm going to start blogging more....it's time to get real.
At 41, I've hit my all-time highest weight. I'm 293. I'm down a pound from last week, which was my highest weight ever. I'm in very poor health. My life style has been very sedentary. My self-esteem is at its lowest.
Today has been 13 years since I lost my mom. She was overweight, had poor health, and a sedentary lifestyle. She was only 55.
This is not what I want for my Ladybug
Today I had an epiphany.
So simple, yet took me years to realize....I don't have to live the life my mom lived.
Although she was one of the most intelligent people I ever knew, she was also one of the most self-destructive. She was a recovering alcoholic, a long-time smoker and she didn't exercise. She had diabetes and OA. She passed from a stroke.
Today I started physical therapy for my Sciatica. I also made an appointment with the eye doctor. I have an appointment with my primary doctor in a couple weeks, and I just saw my Rheumatologist last week. I still need to see a dentist. Although I have depression, I don't think that it's to the point where I need to see a therapist. I think exercising, keeping in contact with my support system and losing weight will help in that area of my life.
Today I decided not to live the life my mom did. I want a healthier life. I want a longer life. I want a more active life. And it starts now!