Eye of the Beholder
Saturday, July 06, 2013
Yesterday I hired a wonderful lady called Emma, who is from the Phillipines to clean the house. She is a spotless housekeeper. There is clean and then her brand of clean. I only hire a house cleaner once in a blue moon because it is pricey. The house is aglow!
Emma used to be a nanny for our twin boys when they were eight years old. She and her family are now citizens. Time has passed and I can't believe those little boys of ours are now 24 year old men.
When Emma arrived she burst into a huge smile and said, "My goodness you have lost weight and are so slim!" I was surprised to hear that because she hadn't seem me in 16 years and the last time I was only 44 years of age. I said to my husband later, "Was I heavy then?" He said not unkindly. "Yes, for most of your adult life you have been overweight."
That got me thinking that I totally do not have that much body awareness. Then again, maybe that is how I coped with being so heavy. I know when I used to look in a mirror I had selective vision and saw myself only from the front. I remember catching myself sideways in a reflection of a store window and wondering who that large lady was. I was surprised to discover it was me!
There are two sides to this perception thing. Sure on one side I guess I fooled myself by not acknowledging how big I was. On the other side, not knowing it was that bad probably was a coping mechanism keeping me from not being that unhappy about it.
I thought I would share this because I still am surprised when people are surprised that I am now a lot slimmer.