Back, for good.
Monday, September 30, 2013
It seems that I'm finally out of post-partum depression for good this time. The past 23 months have not been fun, some times I've felt better than aother and thought I could "be myself" again, only to find out that, nope, I was still struggling and sometimes loosing the battle.
I'm slowly getting better at making healthy eating choices again and I've even started to excercice a bit, again. Not much, though, but I committed myself to doing 75 squats a day and I've been doing good for almost a week now. Yeah, not much, but that little tiny step has really been enough to boost my confidence back. A bit.
I'm now at my highest weight ever (not counting pregnancies), and it doesn't feel comfortable at all. I'm turning 40 next March, and I remembered last week that in 2009 I wanted to run the NYC marathon the year I turn 40. I don't think I'll be able to run a full marathon next year, and running it in NYC seems impossible given our financial situation, but I can still meet the "fit & toned at 40" goal that I had set up for myself back then.
I have 26 weeks to make a difference. I want to get rid of 20 kilos (44 pounds) and at the same time turn this flabby post-pregnancy body into a fitter & toned one. I'm really out of shape so I'll need to take it slowly. And I have to take into account the not yet 2 yo who's with me all day long : I realistically can't commit to very long workouts, not on a daily basis. I might be able to squeeze in longer workouts here and there when someone can watch after him, but I'll have first to get back in shape so that I CAN do longer workouts. For now, Tony Horton's 10 Minute Trainer seems just perfect for me.
My goal for week 1 is to do ONE workout each day, walk for 20 minutes and eat no dairy. I'll of course try and do better in regards to food, like eating a fruit instead of a cookie if I'm hungry, but I just want to focus on one thing at a time. When I'm again consitently good at not eating any dairy, I'll pick up another goal... small and steady wins the race.
I took some before photos this morning, not going to post them, but they'll hopefully keep me motivated. I also took my measurements because I know the scale won't tell the whole truth and those for now scary numbers will soon turn into good motivators.
I am now on my way to buy a resistance band in order to do my first workout this afternoon...