I've been away for a long time. I'm the Prodigal Daughter who has been out in the world, eating my way through it.
But I realized that I needed to come home, and I'm back.
And Father God has welcomed me back splendidly.
I got into a class at Church called Made To Crave (based off the book by Lysa TerKuerst). I can't believe that I've been losing weight pretty much my entire life, and it took this long to finally realize that I should involve God in my mission to go smaller!
I AM now doing this through God, with His help, and for his glory. My mission isn't so much to become slender (although I do hope that will happen) -- it's to become the woman that God designed me to be. Inside and out.
I am not bragging when I say this, because it is all God's doing --- certainly not mine: I can't believe how ridiculously easy it has been to refrain from eating foods I have determined are not healthy for me; and to be completely satisfied with the foods (and amounts) that I have been eating. And yes, I'm losing weight at a very pleasing pace.
God has given me patience and a calmness that I have never felt before when on a weight loss mission.
I have a long way to go. I still have 88 lbs. to lose. It's a 'normal size' goal: 160 lbs. I have a very large frame, and at that weight I will be a size 10-12 (the smallest I have ever been).
I'm so pleased to be losing weight, but even more pleased to feel this calm inside me. I am leaving this in God's hands. I am so content to spend my time seeking God and his presence in my life. I am so blessed to have excellent Christian music available to me for workouts. I am so grateful for this age of electronics and technology so that I have tools and online friends that I would never have otherwise.
WHY didn't it ever occur to me before to go to God with this?
Well, I did this time, and I truly believe it will be the last time I ever have to lose weight.
Photo taken Oct 2013 @ 235 lbs.