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DAMN!!!! What a loser!!!!

Sunday, December 29, 2013

I have been doing everything that I should not! Feel just horrible about it, but have not been able to bring myself to change things until now. Gained back all the weight that I lost, plus 7 pounds. Started smoking AGAIN!!!!! My house is a mess, and I still have not found a job. I am allowing my mother to help me out with money from her social security every month! What the HELL!!!!

OK, rant over!

In reality, yes, I have messed up pretty much every aspect of my life in the past couple of months. I realize that I have done it to myself, and that I can change everything. Had a serious talk with myself, and I actually listened. LOL Ready to make the changes that I need to get back to where I need to be. It will be hard, but I know that I am NOT a loser, and can do anything that I set my mind to.

I will be using this blog forum to work through things. Don't expect or ask people to read it. It will be one of my ways of working through things.

You have been warned!

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    my dh had a health scare and said " I have done it to myself" several times. i was glad to hear him accept the things he always made excuses about.
    2729 days ago
    emoticon Start right where you at right now and take it step by step ... goal at a time, one meal at a time, one day at a time.
    2730 days ago
    Oh yeah, and ix-nay on the oser-lay. I don't let anyone call my friends names. emoticon
    2730 days ago
    I really can relate, and I also know you can get through it. You have a support network - please don't be afraid to use it. People like to help! Hang in there - and we are all here to listen, rant or otherwise.
    2730 days ago
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    emoticon Remember - your Sparkfriends are here to lend an ear and a shoulder to lean or cry on whenever needed. Take it one day at a time - sometimes one hour at a time! That's what I'm doing as I strive to put my life back where it was. Sometimes I just keep repeating "just for today" over and over - and start saying it again the next day!
    Stay strong.
    2730 days ago
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    Today is a new day. Start fresh.
    2730 days ago
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