My Love/Hate Relationship with Sleep
Tuesday, February 04, 2014
I have a love/hate relationship with sleep. At night, I don’t want to go to bed. In the morning, I don’t want to get up.
I don't want to go to bed at night because I still have many things that I want to do, but then getting up early is alwful in the morning... even though I like my work and I like my workplace. I've been like this for a long as I can remember. I hated bedtime and so was getting up, even now I tell myself I should go to bed early because I'll know I'll be very tired in the morning if I don't but I can't seem to help myself. I do it every night and I always regret it in the morning.
I guess I should look at this like starting a new way of eating to eat healthier don’t always do everything I know I should do...I know I shouldn’t over-stimulate my mind at night, yet I frequently postpone shut-eye to do just a little more.
I know I need to make going to bed/sleep a priority. My health, feeling good, happy, peaceful, productive the next day,will be worth it.
I know I shouldn’t worry about things I can’t control, but sometimes as I lay in bed I go over and over the same thoughts and concerns in my head.
I keep replaying events in my head over and over again from the day. What methods are effective in stopping the racing thoughts? I have more anxiety reliving the event than I do actually experiencing it....
I really had a hard time letting go last night/this morning.
2:30 am I decided to let it be...was how I got to sleep.
I can't wait to get back to 100% (I'm still recovering from surgery) , once I can start exercising...sleeping would be a cinch...
In the meantime I am going to just let it be....time to turn inward and meditate....!
..and time to turnoff the 'puter..
My head hurts and I'm turning in early tonight...good-night.