Sunday, February 23, 2014
I'm sorry SP for my disappearance. I have been avoiding this site.
I have been trying to live intuitively and feel that the focus that SP puts on weight loss and eating the correct number of nutrients is not helpful for me at this time. I have learnt a lot from this site but I now want to be free from the restrictions it places on me. I am trying to let my body guide my food decisions and let my weight normalize to its natural place.
This doesn't mean that I am giving up only that my focus has changed. I no longer want to focus on losing weight and getting exercise minutes in. This just leads to me feeling guilty for eating the wrong foods and not being physically active. I will eat what I want (listening to what my body needs) and exercise when it feels right. I am using the exchange system as my guide to what I should be eating and trying to exercise 3X per week but doing so only to help me feel better, not make my body feel exhausted.
I look at past posts and see wonderful lists of goals and plans that I never follow through on. They are great ideas, I just don't have the energy to follow them. It seems silly for me to continue on with this pattern when the plans never materialize to action. Same goes with trying to lose weight. I say I will, and make a great plan, I just can't follow the plan. This leads to failure. Why would I continue setting myself up to fail?
Limes, you are a wonderful team. Thank you for what you have provided. I feel very bad for leaving you (and not ever losing weight) but it just doesn't fit with my ideology anymore, nor do I have the mental energy to keep up to date with the team. I really don't know how you women do it- work, family, exercise, cooking healthy foods, keeping up with the challenges/ chats. I thought this challenge would be easier for me (lower course load) but instead, all the free time has actually made it harder to 'fit' the challenge/working out/ eating healthy in. I don't have the energy to do it, no idea how you girls do- but Congrats, you all deserve a reward for doing everything you do.
I don't want this to be my farewell to SP or the challenges, this site has provided me so much over the past few years, but right now I don't have the energy to keep up with it.
If anyone has tumblr (which I doubt given SPs demographics), you are welcome to contact me on the their. My URL is http://peaksoflife.tumblr.com/
I will also try and keep up with my SP messages. Maybe even join the spring challenge as an honorary member.
All the best