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Monday, March 10, 2014

emoticon Gosh peeps, I don’t even know where to begin?! I haven’t been able to keep up with all the blogs I follow or write myself this past week. Distracted by life. But in a good way. Feeling good.

emoticonFriday, got to complete the motorcycle class. Now Im not ready to go ride a motorcycle out on the street, it was an intro class to teach the basic mechanics. Im not intimidated now, and if I had to drive a motorcycle to transport myself in an emergency I believe that I could, because now I know how it works. Never got the bikes out of first gear, but practiced starting and breaking and was able to get it full out in first so enough to feel the rush of the cool breeze. Ah, I can see where it would be addicting. Don’t think Im ready to go out and buy myself a bike next week, but its not out of the question in the future. Its cool to open myself up to new experiences.

emoticon Met with my theripast Sat for the first time in over a year. Went alone. Was real honest about where Im at with the marriage issues. Have appointment to go back again next week. She wants to see me alone for now. Until I can decided how I feel about proceeding with the relationship. Im pretty ambivalent right now, and Im starting to get all these messages from the universe that sometimes its okay to make a wrong choice as long as you choose something! Maybe that’s where its at for me, maybe leaving my husband will be the wrong thing, but Im starting to feel like it doesn’t matter, really.

emoticon Other than that, meet with my new sponsee yesterday and got her started on her 1st step. God, I love working the program, it keeps me Right! Its really what I need in this point in my life and I know my Higher Power is giving me just what I need. I had another gal ask me to sponsor her at the Sat. meeting but haven’t heard from her yet, Im not sure if shes ready yet. Its tough, I hate to see people in pain, but you CANT do it for them, they have to want it for themselves and be willing to work for it. I didn’t even get her number, but I know she has mine, so its in her hands now. I hope I do hear from her and that she ‘gets it’.

emoticon Last night my daughter and I went to my Aunt’s house to hang out. We stayed longer than I planned, but worth it. Feel kinda bad we blew off my husband, who was hanging at home, but said he was really tired, so who knows if we would have even spent time together if we had come home earlier. They invited us to stay for supper, and we watched one of my aunt’s favorite movies, The Phantom of the Opera (2004) and my daughter loved it, so I call that a win. I hadn’t seen it in years, and I knew why, I was in tears at the end. Not just little tear rolling down the cheek tears, no friends, open weeping. I love/hate the way that story makes me feel. Mostly love, but it hurts, damn it hurts. Great story. Great delivery. I keep telling my Aunt she HAS to see the Off Broadway production. Its one of the few Iv seen and it blew me away.
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  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    good week
    1471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13778707
    Have only been to one live show but would love to see more. They did put in a little theater in our little town and it seems to be doing well. They fill the parts w/ volunteers from the community.
    My ex husband and I went to couples therapy and a retreat and the therapist basically told me to get a divorce after about four visits. Hope all works out good for you
    2697 days ago
    The motorcycle class wore me out. And I don't ride today but at least I have my license. I am glad you are in a program and are serving others. God bless.
    2698 days ago
    I'm so excited for your motorcycle classes! That sounds like so much fun!

    It's great that you're meeting with your therapist and moving in the direction of making a decision, whatever that decision may be. I think it's smart to take it slow, talk it over with someone who is objective about the situation and then to fully engage in life either in the marriage or apart from it. You're so brave for taking it all head on!

    Phantom of the Opera was my dad's favorite show, so I've been so many times I can't even count. Every time I'm blown away by the power and beauty of the music, I just love it. I haven't seen it since my dad died.. not sure if I could get through it now myself.

    I've missed you, but I'm so happy that you've been away due to loving your life!
    2699 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12024980
    Sounds like on balance you had a great week, which is awesome.

    emoticon and here's to another great one.

    Take care

    2699 days ago
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