Feeling bad about staying
Monday, May 21, 2007
This morning I woke up and had high hopes of seeing a loss. I have not weighed myslef in almost a week. Instead I saw an increase. I am leading a challenge team right now and I am doing a good job at posting but not at loosing weight. I work out a lot. I bust my butt. So what is going on. I have not been loosing weight for 6 weeks. When I lose weight the next week it is back. I don't know how to feel or what to think. Yesterday I was able to wear a size 14. So I am in between a 16 and 14. I told myself I would be happy if I got to a size 14 and I did. So why should I go on staying on SP. Why should I look at the scale and things. It is a big let down when you think you bust you butt and see nothing. I am depressed today about it. I still worked out this morning at the Y. I will work out tomorrow as well. I just want something that is not happening right now. I want to be a loser and continue to be one. Maybe I just need some words of encouragement right now. Instead of me always giving it which I am fine with. I just feel I don't have the place any longer to do so.