Now, I live in LA
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Wow. A lot has happened since I've been on here. Not even in the actual time sense, but even in the amount of time I've been gone, there's been a lot packed into that period.
I graduated college last month, moved to LA, and started a new job in my field and I am super happy. I'm currently looking for an apartment, which is very stressful and time-consuming, but I am working on it diligently everyday after work. I am lucky enough to have made amazing friends in my semester-stay in LA a few months ago. They are letting me stay with them for up to a month while I look for a place, and I got lucky with that. It's been a whole fiasco, and it has really distracted me from getting into shape.
I have a goal to lose 40 lbs by my birthday, October 14. I would really love to be able to find a place soon because I am struggling to stay on track, not having a normal living situation and just being stressed in general. Working out would probably be a great relief for that, but living out of a suitcase makes it hard to find clothes for work, much less to work out. I miss working out though. And I miss how I feel when I'm healthy. And I fully intended to be on my stuff when I moved out here, but the living situation has proven to be a bit difficult. Plus, starting a new job has made it a weird time for me.
And then, there's my back issue. Sciatica has put me out of the game for longer periods of time than I would like to even think about, but I am also working on looking for a PT to start some sort of treatment program soon. Some days I can barely walk and others, I can be mobile through the pain. Then sitting hurts, too! It's a lose-lose a lot of the time. But I really am tired of living my life feeling like I'm three times my age. I am tired of not being able to get up (sometimes, literally) to do the things I want to do because either I'm in so much pain or I think I might hurt myself more. Working out has suffered a lot because of that reason. I started walking more for exercise to help, and it somewhat helped, but sometimes it hurts worse when I wake up the next morning...so it's hard. Like I said - once I find a place to put all my things, aka a "home," I will move on to the next step of finding a person to treat me and hopefully heal me. This has gone on for literally four years, and I'm sick of being virtually disabled in some respects.
Luckily, I am settling into work really well and I'm currently in my second week as a real person in the real world. I feel like I'm getting closer to finding a place, and when I do, I am also buying a juicer. Not as a supplement to eating or anything, but just for extra nutrients in the morning to wake myself up for a long work day. I have been eating *healthier* in the meantime, though. I am trying my best with the situation I have. I don't want to make excuses for everything; I really try not to.
I will be working on finding my digs, and actually working at my job, but I do want to be on here more. Especially in a new city, it's nice that I can take you guys with me wherever and there is still some familiarity. And I sincerely wish I was as dedicated as I used to be during this time, but another goal of mine is to be on here very regularly once I'm settled because I won't have any more excuses. I am using this time in my life, when I'm single, have no kids or obligations, to make myself better in all ways. The job was the hardest part. Now the rest needs to follow!