Monday, July 07, 2014
I'm so annoyed with myself. I don't want to be as heavy as I am. I don't want to see that number. I don't want to lose my breath doing the easiest of things. I've felt like this for years.
I start...I just don't continue. GAH!!
I have the tools. I buy the food. And then I just throw away all the food. I just spent $80 bucks buying groceries to eat well. And then I went out and bought a burrito from a Mexican place. And most of my groceries have not been put away in the kitchen. Because the good stuff I bought last week needs to be thrown out. What is that?! Who does this?!
I'm pissed because I weighed myself this morning...209.4
Really?! Definitely not my heavist weight. But a few months ago I hit a great goal...I was under 200!! You'd think that milestone would be what I needed!!
And I kept saying, Sunday, gonna buy all my stuff, gonna wake up Monday morning and do Day One of the 21 Day Fix.
I did not wake up and do the Fix. So I planned all day to ride my bike at the park.
I think I rode for 10 minutes because I just couldn't breathe.
I'm so frustrated :(