Dazed and Confused
Monday, August 04, 2014
Well, I find myself back here again. So, tired of this weight battle that I can't even express it! I've only been back for a week or two, but already my level of discouragement, frustration and confusion is sky high.
I just don't know what I need to do anymore. For the past 4 - 5 yrs., no matter what I've tried, I have not been able to lose weight. A couple of years ago I went to a Nutritionist. Her final assessment was that until my fibromyalgia is better controlled, I'm basically not going to lose weight. I'm in so much pain & have such an extreme level of exhaustion that movement is very, very difficult & what I do takes days to recover from. Plus, my sleeping is a mess - I have 2 different sleep disorders as well as the fibro which frequently does not allow REM sleep. So, my cortisol is all messed up. My metabolism is practically nonexistent.
One of my doctors has been trying for 2 yrs. to get me to have weight loss surgery. So, I finally looked into it and went to the seminar. There I discovered that I'm about 10 lbs. short of being approved (because of insurance), and though my weight would qualify if I had the appropriate co-morbidities, and though I have 8 different medical diagnosis, I don't have the RIGHT one. I'm not diabetic and I don't have sleep apnea.
So, here I am again. Desperate to find something. But, I'm flailing around feeling very, very alone, and not having any idea what I should do. I've done it all - just counted calories, Weight Watchers, Atkins, South Beach, Non-processed/all organic, Mediterranean... I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what is right. I've been dieting since I was 17 yrs. old and my gym teacher told me I could drop 5 lbs. I've read everything out there - books, articles, blogs. What's right? Is any of it right? Will anything work for me?
In October I was diagnosed with a wheat allergy/gluten sensitivity. So, they tell me I have to eat gluten free. My holistic doctor wants me all organic & non-processed. The fibro people have another whole set of foods that are going to irritate my pain and inflammation. My head is spinning. I'm just so confused! Is there any help for me?!