One 12 inch square part of my bathroom floor.
Friday, September 05, 2014
The other day I stepped on that silly mechanical thingy that takes up one square foot of my bathroom floor. It tells you numbers, when you stand on it...
I don't like that thing.
It used to be a good friend of mine though; years ago. Years ago I couldn't go a day or two without visiting with it; and getting my daily does of either self confidence or self loathing (depending upon many factors both in and out of my control).
Then, about 14 months ago, I looked at that 12 by 12 inch piece of metal and glass, and I stuck in the closet.
The other morning I pulled it out, mainly out of curiosity. "Hmm, lets see," I thought, gently creeping onto it one foot at a very tender time. "That's not right." Step off, and back on, "Nope, still broken" pick it up and shake it for good measure then one more time off and on, "Darnit"....
Yeah, it gave me a number. Not one I'm overly pleased with to be perfectly honest. But what it did not give me was a whole lot more than what it did.
It didn't give me:
It just gave me a number..... and much like the tag in the jeans I bought the other day (because apparently high-waisted skinny jeans are "cool" again... and that's a whole separate rant) I can choose to not pay any attention to that number.
So I got off that mechanical piece of glass and metal and you know what happened? That number disappeared.
Now I'm not saying it's not a useful tool. As a matter of fact for me, the other day, it was tool I chose to use to change some things I've been doing lately. Much like changing the alarm on my alarm clock to 10 minutes earlier so I don't rush in the morning. I still get up every day, but sometimes I need a little push to do what I very well know I need to.
So for all of my friends who struggle with the same things I do, my friends who beat themselves up over the same things I used to, and who look to that tool for any of the items in the list above; I urge you to see it for what it is.... A TOOL.
It does not measure YOU, it measures simply how much pressure you put on the earth via gravity. Remember that. Remember YOU are more than a number, you are a person with so much more about you than a silly digit on a silly mechanical tool.
Have a blessed day everyone!