In 19 days we will see the end of 2014, the year of my rebirth, the year when friends, family, and total strangers pulled together to donate money, purchase t-shirts, rummage sale goods and baked goods in order to help me get the much needed gastric sleeve surgery that would give me a second chance at living a longer, healthier, fitter life.
As of this morning, I am down 68 pounds. My goal is to have lost 72.2 pounds by the last day of this year, putting me under 200 pounds and into that magical place called ONEderland. I have 19 days to lose those 4 pesky pounds. I have gotten close to ONEderland once since I joined sparkpeople 5 years ago, only to gain every pound back plus a LOT more until I hit the high of 272 a year ago thanks to steroids, my own messed up metabolism, and just plain old giving up and giving in. If you know me even a little bit, you know that giving up and giving in is SO not me, but there it is. I felt hopeless. Insurance turned me down time and again for the surgery my primary care, cardiac, and rheumatology docs all insisted I needed. Then my daughter stepped in and created the Save The She Beast campaign and...well, you know the rest. July 28th was my surgery day, my "rebirth" day. Nothing but progress since - even if some of it has been a bit slow, it's been progress!
I knew I was losing. The scale said so. My clothes were getting looser. I could see a bit of difference between the pictures I was taking to make progress. But it really wasn't until I did a comparison of my FACE that it really showed to me that I was progressing. Yes, I'm a bit dismayed by the fact that my neck is now a turkey wattle and I have a lot more wrinkles and loose flesh, but that will be fixed eventually. Vanity much? Why, yes, thank you! Plastic surgery is in my future FOR SURE! But the fact that my face is much smaller thrills me and really gave me the WOW moment I needed to realize just how far I have come since last Christmas. Here's what I'm talking about:
Here's some body shots from the last 15 months until now when I am 4.5 months post-op:
Front and Side comparisons From July 21st (one week before surgery) and today with 50 pounds gone (68 pounds total since May 1st). You should know that these are the first pictures of me in a bathing suit since 1984 - truly! Not pretty, but honest!
That's where I am so far. I want to hit that under 200 pounds by December 31st so bad I can taste it. ONEderland, I'm on my way! My goal after that is to hit 175 by my 10 year anniversary April 16th and after that is to hit 150 by my husband's birthday on August 12th. This time next year I hope to be at goal. My goal is listed as 120 pounds, but you know what? That's adjustable and debatable. If I am thrilled to pieces anywhere from 125 to 145, that's where I will stay. 145 is what my thin husband weighs. My biggest goal of all is to weigh less than him. So, we will stop where I feel the happiest and healthiest. Charts and scales may guide me to where I need to be, but no chart nor scale shall rule me.
Well folks, that's all the news that's fit to report, as they say!
Never give up, never give in.
As always, I love you all.