Starting over. How do you kick this vicious cycle?
Wednesday, July 08, 2015
I wish I was coming back to report that I had met my final goal. Wishing isn't going to erase the fact that I am back to square one. I have had a lot going on in my life for the past couple of years. I could sit here and blame my gain on many things but ultimately it's my fault. Let's rewind for a moment. Two years ago, my family and I decided to move to Tennessee. When we arrived in June of 2013, I immediately hated it. I became extremely depressed and just quit everything. I hated my new job and life pretty much sucked for awhile. Two months later much to our surprise, we found out that we were expecting a baby. I was so happy yet still so sad. Here I was 1200 miles from my family and they wouldn't be able to be part of this wonderful moment in our lives. As time went on, things got better with many rocky times in between. In 2014 we bought a house which made life here a little more permanent. In December of 2014 we were devastated by the news that my husband's transplanted kidney had failed. (He had a transplant in 2011, see prior blogs.) Life was once again turned upside down. To add to our devastation, in March 2015, our house caught on fire and were displaced for nearly 3 months. I know this stress has not been good for my health. Having to deal with the stress constantly at home and at work, I was finding no escape. I recently purchased an elliptical and I am going to take time for myself and take control of my weight back. I have to. I'm miserable. I have my babies to think about. Their daddy isn't doing well. I have to be here for them. So..here we go..current weight is..294. I can do this!!