Have to figure out moods
Monday, August 03, 2015
So Missy slept over at her girlfriends last night, and I stayed up WAYYYYYY too late, which meant I slept in WAYYYYYY to long. I still can't figure out how to make myself just have motivation....it seems like a big battle everyday. I know a lot of it is dealing with issues that have happened over the past several years, but there has to be a time when I can wake up, know what I need/want to do, and just get it done. I miss that more than I can say.
When I look back on the first time I did this program, it seemed to be relatively easy, and I saw successes right away and rolled with them towards a much better life and self esteem. I ran a marathon a year after starting, and was at goal weight at that time. Now it seems like a chore to just get out there and do it - although, to my credit, it has been over 2 months that I have met my exercise goals.
Everyone has issues, and has to deal with them, and eventually has to decide whether to stay in the weeds, or fight to get out of them. I am in the fight stage right now for sure. Today I did a 50 minute run/walk on the dreadmill, did not want to do it, but was successful:) Tomorrow I am going to change it up with a P90X upper body workout, and likely a 30 minute stint on the treadclimber (not a dreadclimber yet as I don't have the relationship with it that I have with the treadmill).
Again...as Wood would say..."Life is Good!!!"