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Monday, August 03, 2015

So Missy slept over at her girlfriends last night, and I stayed up WAYYYYYY too late, which meant I slept in WAYYYYYY to long. I still can't figure out how to make myself just have motivation....it seems like a big battle everyday. I know a lot of it is dealing with issues that have happened over the past several years, but there has to be a time when I can wake up, know what I need/want to do, and just get it done. I miss that more than I can say.

When I look back on the first time I did this program, it seemed to be relatively easy, and I saw successes right away and rolled with them towards a much better life and self esteem. I ran a marathon a year after starting, and was at goal weight at that time. Now it seems like a chore to just get out there and do it - although, to my credit, it has been over 2 months that I have met my exercise goals.

Everyone has issues, and has to deal with them, and eventually has to decide whether to stay in the weeds, or fight to get out of them. I am in the fight stage right now for sure. Today I did a 50 minute run/walk on the dreadmill, did not want to do it, but was successful:) Tomorrow I am going to change it up with a P90X upper body workout, and likely a 30 minute stint on the treadclimber (not a dreadclimber yet as I don't have the relationship with it that I have with the treadmill).

Again...as Wood would say..."Life is Good!!!"
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  • no profile photo CD557571
    Fight on dear sister. I remember it being much easier the first time too. Is it like child-birth that way....where we forget the struggles and hard parts, but remember the good stuff?

    Good job on two months of meeting exercise goals. You ROCK!!!
    2147 days ago
    Girls you rock!! Thanks so much:):) xoxo
    2147 days ago
    I'm finding the struggle for me is that I know what I *used* to be able to do and where I *used* to be - it kind of saps my motivation. And I get so mad at myself (which, you know, is so very helpful). Then I have to remember that every day is a new day. I know things I didn't know before (and so does my body). And mostly, that it's possible if I put the work in. (hugs)
    2148 days ago
    You will eventually get back to that place again. Life has its own timetable, but you are making progress by being here!
    2148 days ago
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