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Wednesday, August 12, 2015

I couldn't figure out why I felt meh today. Figured out what I wanted to do for a workout, then basically sat on my butt the entire day. Before I would have given myself some really bad self-messages. But today I knew it as different. My dear friend who lives in Nova Scotia was coming to town. The first time I met her was at JASR in Pittsburgh. It was so cool to put a face to a long time rookie runner:-) Gail is an amazing person, and I so looked forward to meeting up with her and her hubby/bro.

I realized today that I am actually embarrassed of how I have let myself go dealing with all the stuff that has gone on. It is bizarre to me that these words even belong in my life, but I guess it is another bump to jump over. I am having a problem even looking into the mirror right now...but it will go, that I know.

Are we at another level Jan? I don't know, but I do know that 1 day without exercise will not derail me...

Tomorrow I am meeting my dear friend and her family for breaky, and driving her up the Okanagan valley to see some amazing sights. So happy to be able to connect with her again:)
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  • no profile photo CD2801676
    You have no reason to be embarrassed. You have not let yourself go dealing with the stuff ... it can be summarized in one word ... "grief". You can probably say you have 'reached a different level' in your journey.
    2141 days ago
  • no profile photo CD557571
    You are a wonderful hostess, and the two (or four) of you will share good company. Enjoy your day!
    2142 days ago
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