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Inevitable

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Hoo boy.

For any of you who may follow me on Facebook, you already know this. If I sound repetitive, so be it.

But first, a word from my sponsor: "Inevitable". Webster's Vest Pocket Dictionary briefly defines 'inevitable' as "incapable of being avoided or escaped".

Yesirree.

Within the last three weeks I have been through some interesting new experiences and have been admitted into a stay-in-my-home Hospice program.
What an incredible, dedicated group of people! I am in this at an earlier stage than many families choose. The support for my husband and daughters, etc., is firmly in place; I am still capable of answering important questions myself and expressing wishes that perhaps later I could not do. I have time to enjoy these new friends in my life. I have time to appreciate some dear people already in my life who are totally there whenever I call.

And all that is happening occurs within the realm of inevitability. I will die. Maybe no sooner or later than some of you. No one can really put a number to it. In my case, a lung cancer has grown and metastasized, perhaps into my brain. A beloved family doctor has said 2 to 5 years, but that's just a guess.
I have chosen not to avoid what is going on but rather to be curious and feel adventurous, serene, and SO FULL OF LOVE. Those of you with a strong faith, this is what has been and always will be available to us: LOVE. However you imagine it, it is a great mystery none of us can avoid, and who should want to? Certainly not me.

What my life contains now is an overflowing of blessings, a desire to make art for as long as possible, and (as some LinkedIn executive posted) solve for the following problem: FEAR.

My wish for any of you out there who take the (long!!!) time to read this: have no fear. It takes away from your God-given ability to appreciate and love all that surrounds you. It can easily give power to that which can be evil.

I have walked a path obviously prepared for me since mid August. I give thanks that I can see the power behind that guidance.

God bless you all! I'm going to try to keep writing, long-winded though I am!!
Priscilla
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  • PAULALALALA
    Priscilla -- Having hospice on board sounds like really good planning. So glad you have time to be with your family and your art and appreciate all your blessings. Thank you for the update.
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    2136 days ago
  • KOFFEENUT
    Priscilla, even though it is inevitable most of us don't live our days with the sense of purpose and appreciation that goes with recognizing there is a bookmark in our Daytimer. Even though I'm sure it is difficult for your family knowing your bookmark is sooner than they'd like, there are blessings in appreciating EVERY day. Will keep all of you in our prayers -
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    2138 days ago
  • LALATIDAH
    I will pray for you and your family. emoticon
    2138 days ago
  • GAILITCH
    I am thrilled to have discovered your blog. Your art is beautiful and your words full of love. With respect and extending a hand in friendship from Michigan.
    2138 days ago
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