Thursday, June 14, 2007
Okay, I am an emotional disaster. I eat my rage and I scratch my skin... It's really uncontrolable, I hate it.
I am doing horribly.
Since I work nights shifts (not evenings shifts, NIGHT), I don't have (read take) the time to do anything. I haven't go to the gym.. I can't even remember when was the last time. I lost 5 lbs, I took them back. Lately I order a lot of (EVIL) restaurant food. I don't have (take) the time to cook! I don't have (take) the time to do the groceries. I don't have (take) the time to post on my team challenge (do they know that i'm still alive (or care)?! No one noticed that I don't post anymore, I used to post like 2 times a day min. oh f*ing well! ) I'm in my TOM, my face is a nightmare and I can see the fat coming back everywhere. I'm so not good in my skin right now... :(
I have very low energy and I see everything as a huge mountain right now.. My boyfriend pointed at me that if I had stayed by my range and did the exercise I said I was gonna do, I'd be f*ing 125 lbs by now. THANK YOU. By the way my english is bad, and i know about it, im not doing it on purpose (the mistakes).
Please help :( I haven't log my food since i don't know when.. didn't drank water.. i really suck.