Time flies even when you're not having fun
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
My last entry was ever so long ago and things have just gone south. I gained 30 pounds, my anxiety disorder got out of control, I lost my job as a librarian, my car blew up and my dearly beloved kitty died. I'm hoping 2016 will be better or at least not suck so much. I did get a job although not one I like and it is very physically demanding. I'm working in a brain injury rehab facility as a graveyard cleaner and food prep aid. There is so much mopping I walk about 3 miles a day now, which is a good thing. I've lost some weight and my back is stronger and I can make it through a shift without thinking I'm going to die. But it's not a job I like and it's boring. Luckily I can listen to my iPod while I'm working and because it's night shift there is little patient care. I do not like patient care, I do not like it here, I do not like it there, I do not like it anywhere. One advantage to this job is that it is local. A job more suited to my tastes would require either a half hour commute or a 45 minute one, quite possibly in bad weather and I do not have the option of moving. My life seems to be a flaming pile of crap right now. I must live in the moment and not cry about the things I've lost or worry about the future. I can do anything one day at a time. I hope.