Eating my feelings away
Thursday, February 25, 2016
I have not lost any more weight. I have not tracked what I've been eating. I'm back on with my hate-love relationship with food. I don't eat during the day at all until dinner time, then have snacks and a meal back to back until bed time. Tonight I've been awake the entire night and started binging, a bowl of cereal, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, brown rice and broccoli chicken, and a large tangerine to top it off. I'm full beyond belief and still have a lingering craving for something sweet. I have binged before, but it's not normal for me to feel so out of control. I'm trying to figure out what is causing me to feel like hurting myself in this way with food. I realized a few days ago that I'm going through early menopause and that has me on tilt because I wanted to have more kids. Everything happens for a reason, I need to be grateful for my boy and girl. I have to keep going, be a good mother and wife, be good to myself by not abusing my body and take it one day at a time.