My best intentions not enough
Sunday, March 20, 2016
I made up my mind that I don't want to be fat, I envision myself loosing all this extra weight that is bothering me. I go to bed every night thinking about how good I'm going to be the next day, eat healthy, work out and feel energetic. All good intentions every single day and night but the more I think about it the more I become obsessed with food and fantasize about what I want to have for my next meal. Like the more I tell myself I'm going to have brown rice and vegetables the more I dream of something really caloric like a big steak and potatoes. Supposedly if you say something it looses its power over you. Well this is what's going on and I want it to stop! Anytime something doesn't go my way I immediately want to eat until I'm numb, that has to STOP TOO!
I obviously don't have it all figured out, but I am learning every day seeing what works and doesn't. Obsessing over loosing weight immediately is not working, I think it's actually making stay stagnant and even gain. My best approach is going to be healthy tendencies and staying full with good food to avoid overeating, having anything I want but controlling portions.
Gonna keep trying. I will succeed eventually.