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Wednesday, April 06, 2016

There are, from what I can tell by Googling and checking FAQs, about 5 million members on Sparkpeople. Therefore, when I posted my little SSP (shameless self-promotion) plea last week to vote for me as a motivator, it was more of a joke than anything, and I expected nothing to come of it. I have built up a small entourage of you fine folks since I started using the Community portion of Spark a few weeks ago, and I am so grateful for all of you, but in the grand scheme of so many people on a weight loss journey and doing such amazing things on their journeys, I really didn't think anyone would take notice of little ol' me. I have been flattered and inspired by the comments on my page, my activity feeds, and especially my blogs, and all of your kind words and encouragement has done miraculous things for me in a time when I am sort of "finding myself again" (I know, I know...a bit ridiculous for a woman of 45, but, hey, I'm sort of in starting-over mode here!). Your remarks about my weight loss have been so helpful, but even more meaningful to me have been your remarks about my writing and, most of all, your remarks about how I have motivated and inspired you to keep going or start going on your journeys.

For all these reasons, I was very humbled when I received word from Spark yesterday that I would receive a motivator badge on my wall. I was even more flattered when I woke up this morning and saw that I am today's featured motivator. I know it may not mean much to anyone that my page shows up in that spot on the screen, but it means a lot to me, because I know it is only because of YOUR nominations and votes and likes. Thank you all SO much for all your support. The word "motivation" really is defined as: "the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way," and you have been that for me, especially when I've felt burnt out and enticed to give up.

Now that that's out of the way, I want to say that my Weigh-in Wednesday went okay. I am down by 2 lbs., and I have now lost 171.2 lbs. total. I am a former secretary and data entry person who is obsessed with spreadsheets, so during this journey, I've been using one to keep track of my progress. I thought my statistics might be encouraging to you:
Starting Date: 1/1/2014
Starting Weight: 329.0
Current Weight: 157.8
First Year Goal: 229.0 (Reached 10/1/14)
Ultimate Goal: 155.0
Lbs. to Final Goal: 2.8
Average Weekly Loss: 1.5
Total Loss: 171.2
Highest Weekly Loss: 7.0 lbs. (1/22/2014)
Lowest Weekly Loss: +7.3 (Gain, 12/31/2015)
Percentage of Bodyweight Lost: 52.04%

What do all these Excel calculations tell us (other than that I take some strange enjoyment in playing with formulas in cells)? All of the above equals one thing: You CAN. I have been on my journey for a long time, and today was my 119th weekly weigh-in. I have not lost my weight as fast as those folks on THE BIGGEST LOSER. I have some flabby skin in places that are, fortunately, still easily hidden by clothing. I occasionally cheat and take a flying leap (not a fall) off the proverbial wagon. I beat myself up for plateaus and gains. I have devoured 8 Peeps in a moment of Easter weakness. I do not exercise at all, even though I know I should. I think water tastes like bloody metal and really struggle to drink even two glasses a day. I am 45, and some of my joints feel like they are 90. I have gone through emotional tumults like divorce after an 8-year marriage and the death of both my parents in a 5-month span in 2015. I have a great deal of stress associated with finances and my business, both of which were very adversely affected during my rocky 2013-15. I do not sleep well most nights, and I wouldn't even know how to begin cooking most raw or healthy or organic things from scratch. Yet, I am 171.2 lbs. lighter than I was on that New Year's Eve so long ago. I am less than half the woman I was, but I am starting to feel like a whole person again. If I can do it, so can you, and while many of you have voted for ME as a motivator, I want you to know that your success, your perseverance, your encouragement, and your journeys have motivated me to keep going through this home stretch, as well as to pick up my writing again.

No matter where you are, the only guaranteed way to fail is to give up, so don't! We can, folks. Believe it, especially on your worst days, when the scale is not nice to you or temptation gets the best of you. I can, you can, and we WILL!

P.S. Have you been writing down those compliments? If you haven't, start. If you have, read them again...and keep writing down new ones!
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    emoticon You deserve it! You are awesome! I look forward to reading your blogs each week.
    I'm a spreadsheet nut too - I actually enter how many miles I've walked per day and how many steps I've taken and it feels so good to see the numbers increase. I can't believe that I never thought of putting my weight and goals in a spreadsheet though emoticon
    I always get new ideas from your blog :) emoticon
    1860 days ago
    You definitely earned the motivator award. Keep on writing!
    1860 days ago
    Your weight loss is amazing. It is nice to hear your path was different. But you are a motivator by what you have accomplished. Thank you for sharing your stories.
    1860 days ago
    Now a VSSP (VERY special spark person)
    1860 days ago
    Awesomeness Autie! Now, lesson #1 cooking perfect veggie combo. I hope you have a microwave. In a large bowl, first pour in a layer of cut carrots, then string beans, then a layer of cauliflower, then a layer of broccoli. Put under cold water to wet the veggies. Pour water out carefully avoiding pouring out the veggies. Put in microwave for 15.30 mins uncovered. The veggies are perfect and ready to eat. I also purchase at Trader Joe's, cilantro /chive yogurt dip to dollop on top of veggies. You cannot taste the cilantro or even the chives but the yogurt dip taste like a billion calories! The yogurt is very low in calls and is a delicious mix, promise. Hugs, fredie
    1860 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Happy for you.
    1861 days ago
  • MAWGI6
    Love it!! :)
    1861 days ago
    Good for you
    1861 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8129017
    Congrats on becoming a SP Motivator!!
    1861 days ago
    You deserve the motivator nomination! Your story still keeps me moving toward that final goal.
    1861 days ago
  • AMYG5025
    Wow - what an amazing journey you have had so far! Congratulations on you weight loss and for being selected as a Sparkpeople motivator! I look forward to reading more of your writing!
    1861 days ago
    Congratulations on being awarded Sparkpeople Motivator... You truly deserve that award. I can't express enough how much you helped me to 'just do it' and 'keep going'. It's amazing what I have accomplished since Jan 1st & I'm not look'n back! Thank u
    1861 days ago
    Congrats! Your stats are amazing! Go you!
    1861 days ago
  • DYANNE4293
    Congrats on a job well done! And for your badge!
    1861 days ago
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