Sunday, May 15, 2016
I figure an update is due on where I'm at. In the past few weeks alone I have learnt a bit about what I'm doing, where I'm going and how I plan to get there.
I had been struggling to make it up to the minimum 1200 calories/day. I don't have a big appetite and I have extremely low calorie boring breakfasts, which sets me up for an under the radar day. I don't want to change my breakfasts because I like them as they are, I'm not a fancy breakfast person. I also can't add too much more food to my day because I'd just be needlessly stuffing myself and end up feeling sick. So I've learnt to snack smart to get the calories where I need them. Bananas have become my best friend and if I really need a boost, I go for some unsalted mixed nuts in a little yoghurt. That concoction alone puts about 300 calories onto my total, which is desperately needed some days.
I also discovered my happiness was hinging on what the scale said, as you can tell in my previous post. That one week that I actually put weight on when I was injured made me absolutely miserable. I felt like I had completely failed, would not reach my goals, was ugly and fat and horrible (I feel in extremes sometimes). But I've gone down clothing sizes, I can jog for a very small amount of time now, my skin is clearer and I'm often feeling more motivated and active in general day-to-day life. These are achievements that I might not see on the scale but are still there and will only get more noticeable the more I keep at it.
I think over the past few weeks where I've been more aware of my food and snacking smarter and also realised that my success does not rely on what the scale says, I have learnt some important lessons and grown. I'm feeling like I've got a handle on this whole thing and I know I'll be able to keep at it and reach my goals in the long term.