Sunday, July 24, 2016
So July has always been a dofficult month for me. 4 out of 5 people in my family were born in July, and my parents were married in July. Having 5 different celebrations involving cake was always a struggle for me.
I would always look at it with the attitude that it's only a piece of cake. I can indulge and it will be fine. It never was.
After my daughter was born in 2012, I weighed 205. I am 5'5" tall. I was not healthy. My parents have been obese for years and now both suffer with type 2 diabetes. I was on that same path.
When she was 3 months old, I decided to make a change. My parents did too. Following a strict diet, doctor supervised, I lost 60lbs and got down to 147. 7lbs shy of my goal weight. I felt AMAZING!
Since 2013, my parents have gained back all of their weight. I had put back on almost 15lbs.
In September, I was given a promotion at work, and now have an office in our administration office. This contributed to my partial weight gain. Then July came around. It has always been tough. But now it's twice as hard. Not only are there 5 days of celebrations in my family, there are also 5 birthdays in my office in July! And each individual birthday gets a cake. The last one will be mine.
But over the past couple of weeks, I have been tired of feeling gross and worrying that I am going to outgrow my work pants. I can't afford to replace them, and refuse to buy bigger. So I reinvesred myself on the SP world, became dedicated to tracking and making better choices.
Last night was my brothers 40th birthday. My mom got cake. I didn't have any. I found the willpower, because tomorrow is my dads birthday, and my mom asked my 9yo son to bake my dads cake. My son and I have a passion for baking. And I know I will have a piece of my dads cake.
I am so glad my birthday marks the end of birthday season!
I have found my steel willpower! Here's hoping it lasts!!!