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Lost in Outerspace!

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Wow I lost 3 hours this morning already! I spent 3 hours on here writing my blog and researching what I really wanted to say so that I got it just right and I hit submit and poof it was gone just like that. It said my session had timed out. I was pretty disappointed at first and the first thing that popped in my mind was that it was my fault because I took to long to write it. But you know what I just decided that it was probably for the greater good. That was probably not what I was meant to share with you. I have not been practicing what I tell you guys this last few weeks. I thought I was going to get back on track this week but it hasn't happened yet. I am still facing some horrible possibilities. I am having a pipeline stent put in my brain on Friday to keep the aneurysm from rupturing. Things could still go wrong and I could wind up having major brain surgery. I have been trying to get my affairs in order just in case my lungs are not strong enough yet and something bad happens. When you are trying to prepare for something that could turn out catastrophic a lot of things that are important to you seem pointless. No matter how much I tried to convince myself that I needed to keep doing my exercises and my healthy eating are important and I should keep doing them but I admit I have not done either. I was still exercising but not as much as I had been and now for the last two days I have had to force myself to exercise. Through all of this I have gained 4 pounds back of what I had worked so hard to lose. Even with my youngest daughter who has not seen me in over a month commented yesterday how good I was looking and that you could really tell I was losing weight. That should have been enough to kick me back into being who I am supposed to be. Yesterday we were having a birthday party for one of my grandsons that just turned 13 and I indulged last night and had not just a cheeseburger that we grilled but also a hot dog and chips and do not forget the cake.

My point I am trying to make in telling you all this is that you can not beat yourself up if you stray from your path as long as you get back on the horse and return to your path as soon as you can. If you beat yourself up then you are not happy and people that are not happy are depressed or angry and that is just not a good feeling.
You have to learn to be aware of your self talk, the thoughts you have about yourself and what you are doing. Learn to recognize negative thoughts. A negative thought is any thought that could cause you to stray from meeting your goal. You need to kill those thoughts and replace them with positive thoughts. Easier said than done I know I know. But and yes there is a but, if you are doing the confidence jar I told you about in my last blog then you already have a lot of positive things to think about. If you need help during the day with the negative thoughts just go pull another positive affirmation from your jar. It is really that simple and I should have thought about this sooner and I would not be where I am today. So my positive thought for today is that my determination to get healthy is strengthening my lungs and I am able to stand longer and walk just a little further. So way to go me.
Now that you have your positive thought replace that negative one and get up and do what ever it is that you need to be doing. The truth is if you are thinking negative thoughts no amount of reassurance from anyone else is going to help keep you on your path because negative thoughts mean depression and sometimes self loathing. If you do not love yourself you are not going to stay on your path very long.
Okay you just thought that was the activity for today but you would be wrong. LOL. Your activity for today is to get a notebook or a journal and start writing your thoughts about yourself, both good and bad. Why do you have such negative thoughts? And then think about the good things about yourself, the things you can do well, Analyze the things you like. Start thinking about your limitations, and whether they’re real limitations or just ones you’ve allowed to be placed there, artificially. Dig deep within yourself, and you will come out with even greater self confidence in time. Make sure you are logging or blogging all of this. It will definitely build your confidence or self esteem if you keep at it. Besides that it is a really good idea to keep a journal or notebook about your journey. It may or may not help you later down the road but it could definitely help a teenager, a young adult or someone on here that reads your blog.
I was not prepared for all the negative thoughts I have been having. But God has really laid this on my heart, so I am taking note and acting on just what I blogged about today. I will start loving me for me. I will also stop stressing about what could happen and live in the now. I am squashing those negative thoughts and replacing with positive ones.

God bless you and keep you on your journey! Have a fabulous day!
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    I am saying prayers for you too!
    1793 days ago
    Each day is a new opportunity and we should plan to live until God calls us home.
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    Well I am praying for a successful stint placement without complications. In the mean time way to go being able to focus on anything other than the surgery. Sounds like you are doing great trying to stay focused on health and fitness. Hugs.
    1793 days ago
    Lifting prayers for you! With your great attitude and determination you are going to fly through this!
    Bless you!
    1793 days ago
    it is so hard for us to get back on track now isn't it? I'm still struggling rebuilding my endurance from my recent health flare up at the beginning of August!

    Your health issue is life changing. One of my best friends has a stint for an aneurism that started leaking, so I have seen a similar situation first hand. You have the same strong determination to continue to be there for your family that she has. She has thrived for over 5 years now. She currently works full time, and recently joined me in my water aerobics classes.

    It sounds like you are doing everything that you can to move forward right now, including being honest and patient with yourself.
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    Good points ............ well said; always replacing negativity with positive thoughts as part of mind renewal as God's word tells us to do ........... Glad you know the Lord ..... I would lean heavy on Psalms 103 ..... 91st (as I have done since becoming a Christian) .......... They have not failed me .... and they will not fail anyone who takes them to heart and acts on them ........... Best "health" prayers for longevity ......... and good health! ..... emoticon
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    Healthy prayers ur way
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    Sometimes God just puts little detour in for us. I truly believe He led me across your path for a reason. Until I figure out what that might be, I will continue to pray for you. Keep your positive attitude. Many hugs!! Ute
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