I am back home now and the doctors were very positive. They said the surgery went well and the stent is doing what it should be doing. Unfortunately, I have to take a hiatus from exercising for awhile until the doctor gives me the all clear. But on the bright side I am alive and am going to work hard to stay that way!
I am just so not used to laying around and having people do things for me anymore and I do not like it one bit. I want to get up and clean the house but I know I could injure myself in doing so. I am just one of those people that wants everything where it belongs. Everything has a place and I want it to stay there. Unfortunately my family doesn't share that viewpoint with me. You can bet as soon as I get the okay from my doctors to get back to it I will! I have a house to clean and get back in order and exercising to do. For now though I guess my job is just to be a little more patient and tolerant.
It was not too long ago though I was not able to get up and clean house, wash dishes or cook a meal without having to sit down in the middle of it. I have come a long way since May 9th when I joined sparkpeople. When I joined in May I could barely walk from the living room out to our car in the driveway without huffing and puffing and in major pain. Now just 4 months later I am able to stand, play taxi driver for my family and wash the dishes, cook dinner and do dishes again after dinner. Up until the surgery this weekend I was exercising between 90 and 120 minutes every day. I may not be able to get 100% healthy because some of my health issues are not curable and will progress in time but I can improve my quality of life tremendously between now and then and have already done so. My doctor is amazed at what I am doing now. He said the difference in my lungs from April til now is unreal. He gave me more confidence to stay on this road when he told me to keep doing what I am doing because it is definitely working.
I did not tell you all of this for sympathy or congratulations. I am tell you this so if you are still on the fence and not putting your health as a priority that maybe you will after reading this. I have several very serious illnesses and was leading a very sedentary life. I could not cook my own meals. I could not do the dishes.I could not take my grandchildren to the park by myself because I could not walk from the parking lot to the benches by the play place. If we went anywhere that required any walking at all someone would have to go with me that could push my wheelchair. I could not wear tennis shoes because I could not bend down far enough to tie my shoes. Thank the good Lord I married a good man because I do not know how he has stood by me for so many years and watched as I progressively got worse. I had one doctor that finally got through to me and it was not encouragement he was giving me. It was the grim reality of the future I was not going to have if I stayed on the path I was on. He told me that my COPD has no cure and that I would progressively get worse until it killed me or I would have a stroke from lack of oxygen to my brain. It really woke me up. I am not going to let this disease take me without a fight. So I began searching the internet about different diets. I compiled a spreadsheet with several different diets on it with all the food each allows you to have. Then I crosschecked them and came up with my own diet that I just knew would work. I slowly began exercising a little every other day because that was all I could handle in the beginning. When I joined sparkpeople in May I had already lost 25 pounds on my own but was not losing any more. I started exercising every day not very long in the beginning but it was a start. I got up to 2 hours a day and I lost another 34 pounds. Then another devastating blow came. My aneurysm had started to grow and needed surgery. My first neurologist told me i was not a good candidate for surgery. He told me if I survived the surgery I would probably remain on a vent the rest of my life. Again i was devastated and started finding reasons not to exercise because I felt like it just didn't matter since I was not expected to make it. The only good thing that doctor did for me was refer me to a doctor he knew that could preform the surgery and have a chance of it being successful. We made the 4 hour drive to Little Rock to see this specialist. I was at a crossroads, I did not know if I even wanted brain surgery if I was going to die either way. The new specialist read my MRI's and compared them to my MRI's from the year before and told me he could fix it just like that and without invasive brain surgery. The doctor here never even mentioned the possibility of a stent being put in. Of course it is still brain surgery and came with a lot of risks but he and his staff were very confident they could fix it. So I gave in and had the surgery on Friday. It was a rounding success! I woke up in recovery and the first thing he said to me was it is done and all went very well. All I could say was Thank you.
Now I have a 100th chance of getting this right. As soon as I get the all clear I am back to exercising 2 hours a day and am going to start going to the park with either my hubby or daughter and am going to start walking. I am working toward a 6 month goal of being able to walk a mile.
Like they said in the show 'The Six Million Dollar Man' We can rebuild him! We have the technology! Well my friends we do have the technology and we can rebuild our lives. We can become faster, stronger and better than before. There is just one thing holding us back and that is ourselves. No matter how much you know you need to lose weight until you fix your 'want to' it will never happen. You have to make the decision to try and then just do it. Do not wait for tomorrow or next month or even next year if you do not do it now you probably never will. There will always be an excuse not to do it.
Even if your life is very busy or hectic you can find a way. If you want it bad enough you will find a way to make it work. And folks, I don't know about you but I want this bad enough! I am going to do this! I am going to be stronger, faster and better than before.
You know I have to be honest here, I know that my lungs were the primary concern about the surgery but my weight was also a factor. They were concerned I could have a stroke during the surgery. I am telling you there is nothing more sobering than facing the real possibility that there might not be any more tomorrows. I for one am going to ensure that I have all the tomorrows that God will allow me to have. I have to do my part though. I have to make the decision to try.
So what are you waiting for? Are you with me? I am still holding that lifeline as we climb this mountain together! We can do this!
Time for me to go lie down and rest for awhile.
God bless you and keep you on your journey! Have a fabulous day!