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Sunday, September 04, 2016

I am back home now and the doctors were very positive. They said the surgery went well and the stent is doing what it should be doing. Unfortunately, I have to take a hiatus from exercising for awhile until the doctor gives me the all clear. But on the bright side I am alive and am going to work hard to stay that way!
I am just so not used to laying around and having people do things for me anymore and I do not like it one bit. I want to get up and clean the house but I know I could injure myself in doing so. I am just one of those people that wants everything where it belongs. Everything has a place and I want it to stay there. Unfortunately my family doesn't share that viewpoint with me. You can bet as soon as I get the okay from my doctors to get back to it I will! I have a house to clean and get back in order and exercising to do. For now though I guess my job is just to be a little more patient and tolerant.
It was not too long ago though I was not able to get up and clean house, wash dishes or cook a meal without having to sit down in the middle of it. I have come a long way since May 9th when I joined sparkpeople. When I joined in May I could barely walk from the living room out to our car in the driveway without huffing and puffing and in major pain. Now just 4 months later I am able to stand, play taxi driver for my family and wash the dishes, cook dinner and do dishes again after dinner. Up until the surgery this weekend I was exercising between 90 and 120 minutes every day. I may not be able to get 100% healthy because some of my health issues are not curable and will progress in time but I can improve my quality of life tremendously between now and then and have already done so. My doctor is amazed at what I am doing now. He said the difference in my lungs from April til now is unreal. He gave me more confidence to stay on this road when he told me to keep doing what I am doing because it is definitely working.
I did not tell you all of this for sympathy or congratulations. I am tell you this so if you are still on the fence and not putting your health as a priority that maybe you will after reading this. I have several very serious illnesses and was leading a very sedentary life. I could not cook my own meals. I could not do the dishes.I could not take my grandchildren to the park by myself because I could not walk from the parking lot to the benches by the play place. If we went anywhere that required any walking at all someone would have to go with me that could push my wheelchair. I could not wear tennis shoes because I could not bend down far enough to tie my shoes. Thank the good Lord I married a good man because I do not know how he has stood by me for so many years and watched as I progressively got worse. I had one doctor that finally got through to me and it was not encouragement he was giving me. It was the grim reality of the future I was not going to have if I stayed on the path I was on. He told me that my COPD has no cure and that I would progressively get worse until it killed me or I would have a stroke from lack of oxygen to my brain. It really woke me up. I am not going to let this disease take me without a fight. So I began searching the internet about different diets. I compiled a spreadsheet with several different diets on it with all the food each allows you to have. Then I crosschecked them and came up with my own diet that I just knew would work. I slowly began exercising a little every other day because that was all I could handle in the beginning. When I joined sparkpeople in May I had already lost 25 pounds on my own but was not losing any more. I started exercising every day not very long in the beginning but it was a start. I got up to 2 hours a day and I lost another 34 pounds. Then another devastating blow came. My aneurysm had started to grow and needed surgery. My first neurologist told me i was not a good candidate for surgery. He told me if I survived the surgery I would probably remain on a vent the rest of my life. Again i was devastated and started finding reasons not to exercise because I felt like it just didn't matter since I was not expected to make it. The only good thing that doctor did for me was refer me to a doctor he knew that could preform the surgery and have a chance of it being successful. We made the 4 hour drive to Little Rock to see this specialist. I was at a crossroads, I did not know if I even wanted brain surgery if I was going to die either way. The new specialist read my MRI's and compared them to my MRI's from the year before and told me he could fix it just like that and without invasive brain surgery. The doctor here never even mentioned the possibility of a stent being put in. Of course it is still brain surgery and came with a lot of risks but he and his staff were very confident they could fix it. So I gave in and had the surgery on Friday. It was a rounding success! I woke up in recovery and the first thing he said to me was it is done and all went very well. All I could say was Thank you.
Now I have a 100th chance of getting this right. As soon as I get the all clear I am back to exercising 2 hours a day and am going to start going to the park with either my hubby or daughter and am going to start walking. I am working toward a 6 month goal of being able to walk a mile.
Like they said in the show 'The Six Million Dollar Man' We can rebuild him! We have the technology! Well my friends we do have the technology and we can rebuild our lives. We can become faster, stronger and better than before. There is just one thing holding us back and that is ourselves. No matter how much you know you need to lose weight until you fix your 'want to' it will never happen. You have to make the decision to try and then just do it. Do not wait for tomorrow or next month or even next year if you do not do it now you probably never will. There will always be an excuse not to do it.

Even if your life is very busy or hectic you can find a way. If you want it bad enough you will find a way to make it work. And folks, I don't know about you but I want this bad enough! I am going to do this! I am going to be stronger, faster and better than before.
You know I have to be honest here, I know that my lungs were the primary concern about the surgery but my weight was also a factor. They were concerned I could have a stroke during the surgery. I am telling you there is nothing more sobering than facing the real possibility that there might not be any more tomorrows. I for one am going to ensure that I have all the tomorrows that God will allow me to have. I have to do my part though. I have to make the decision to try.

So what are you waiting for? Are you with me? I am still holding that lifeline as we climb this mountain together! We can do this!

Time for me to go lie down and rest for awhile.
God bless you and keep you on your journey! Have a fabulous day!

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  • ROBERT117

    I started on COPD Herbal treatment from Ultimate Life Clinic , the treatment worked incredibly for my lungs condition. I used the herbal treatment for almost 4 months, it reversed my COPD. My severe shortness of breath, dry cough, chest tightness gradually disappeared. Reach Ultimate Life Clinic via their website www.ultimatelifeclinic.com . I can breath much better and It feels comfortable!
    47 days ago
    So happy for you that your surgery was a success - hoping this note finds you improved and now able to begin to get back up and going again ! Your blog most inspiring -- please keep writing on your struggles and successes !!
    1769 days ago
    You are an inspiration Barb. Well done! So glad the surgery went well.Keep up the good work!
    1774 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15853510
    Ute shared your blog with me and I am so glad she did! My name is Barb too and we have a few things in common. We realize that attitude, determination and gratitude are most important in winning the battle to get ourselves healthier, happier, and moving again. I have no doubt that you will achieve your goals and SP will be right there to help you in any way. Please continue to write about your journey. You are an inspiration to everyone who has the goal of being healthier emoticon !
    1784 days ago
  • KERIX3
    So amazing, and I am soooo happy that your surgery went well and that you are feeling optimistic about your future. I am so happy for you!!! Hugs
    1785 days ago
    1785 days ago
    So glad to read this!
    1785 days ago
    Thank you for sharing this. Hope you continue to improve.
    1785 days ago
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    1785 days ago
    So proud of you and your determination!! Many blessings on your journey!
    1785 days ago
  • FLRED12
    I am so glad things went well! Wishing you the best!
    1785 days ago
    Hi Barb, glad everything went well. Take your time and just take it easy.
    1785 days ago
  • JUDITH316
    Hi Barbara, I appreciate you sharing and being so open...Indeed you are an Inspiration & a Blessing.

    I too am happy and am thanking God you came through the surgery well. Yes I can identify with you about not being happy about not being able to exercise as there was a time a few years ago after my work injury when I couldn't exercise.

    Having said that I know it isn't easy not being able to do the things you are wanting to do right now but before you know it these things will be behind you and you will be back doing all the things you enjoy.

    In closing I have added you as my new Spark Friend and when you are up to it I hope you will check out my page and add me also. In the meantime my prayers are with you for a speedy recovery and healing.

    Take Care, your friend, Judith emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1785 days ago
    What a wonderful blog! Thank you for sharing and although you stated you didn't post this for congratulations....you deserve one. Congratulations on all you have accomplished and all that you will.

    I hear ya on wanting things done a certain way....it has been difficult for me to allow others to help me as well emoticon
    1785 days ago
    So very glad to hear it went well. Be patient and kind to yourself
    1785 days ago
    Great message! Wishing you a speedy recovery.
    1785 days ago
    I love your positive onward attitude. I think you've got it and you will make it happen, as you said. You do have to want it to make it happen. I have not had brain surgery, nor stints put in, but I have had a gall bladder removed that put me in the hospital for a week (some much for day-surgery) and caused me to have to put a halt to the fitness program for another week. I learned to do what the doctor said because jumping the gun would mean more issues. That was a couple years ago now and I'm doing well the entire thing is over, but I still cannot eat fat because of all the issues it does.

    I am back up to doing plenty of fitness. I love my fitness videos. But walking is something I have to do, too because even though you do the fitness, your hips can start to give out, so you have to do it all. Strength training is like physical therapy for your joints.

    I am so glad you are doing what you are doing. Giving up is not an option and it looks like you would agree with that. Take care, get rest, do your fitness (slowly at first, even less than you think you can at first), then just go with it. I turned myself into a fitness fanatic after my surgery. I feel so much better, and I still have some health issues, too.

    You can do it! Keep going. Never give up!
    1785 days ago
    Such a great blog, my friend. I feel like a lot of people should hear this and read this. I hope you don't mind that I shared your blog with other friends. Prayers as always for your continued journey and courage!!!

    1785 days ago
    I was so concerned when we didn't hear from you on Saturday. I'm glad to hear the surgery went well. You are an amazing woman!
    1785 days ago
    Every day we change just a small amount. I am also 54 and I started with 30 min of walking a day. You are doing wonderful and I hope you heal quickly and continue on this exciting journey!
    1785 days ago
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    I am with you! So glad your surgery went well. Let's keep up the good work! emoticon
    1786 days ago
    I am delighted your surgery went well.You are amazing !
    1786 days ago
    Thanks for sharing your story. You inspire me. I am at that "huffing & puffing stage" & can't stand long. Glad to hear God brought you through surgery well. Rest & heal!
    1786 days ago
    How motivating. Wishing you a speedy recovery!! You are amazing.
    1786 days ago
    So glad to receive this update! Take rest. It is healing.
    1786 days ago
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