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Feeding the Frenzy

Sunday, November 06, 2016

Well I have just had my first mindless bout of eating since being on this journey. I am so upset! I really am not sure what was going on but last night i got real depressed and nothing out of the ordinary happened. I spent the entire evening with a "woe is me" attitude. I woke up this morning still depressed and the feeding frenzy began. Nothing seemed to matter including my healthy eating and weight loss. The cloud has finally lifted and I am so angry with myself for how i was eating. I am thinking a lot of it was brought on by eating things at the party i would not normally eat. It started with the 6 foot sub sandwich they had there. I just had a small portion but it was full of white flour and processed meats. Both of which I swore off of more than a year ago. Then my mom brought her baked bean casserole that I dearly loved so I had some of that. It had bacon and american cheese. Two more things I do not eat. To top it off my daughter brought Lays potato chips something I dearly love but do not eat. So of course I had a small amount. I am really still not sure why I gave in to all the temptations. Normally that would not be a problem. I just usually take food I can eat. I believe I probably overloaded my system with chemicals and preservatives my body is no longer used to having.

When the cloud of depression finally lifted and realized just what all I had done, I was tempted to go weigh myself to see how bad the damage was but I am not giving in to that desire. Instead I am just going to go back to eating healthy and exercising. I just hope I can work this back off. Nothing is more discouraging to see than a scale when your numbers have increased. So I am going to wait until the end of the week and pray that I can at least get back to what I was this last week. The old adage that says "If you fall off a horse, get right back on" is so true. The longer you wait to correct your mistake, the more chances are that you never will.
So as of this moment I am taking a stand. I refuse to let food when the fight over my health. I will not give up now. I have come to far and have had a taste of what success will look like. So my next meal today will be a healthy one. I will do all of my exercises and I will go walking this afternoon!!

Well now that I have owned up to what I did and have decided the next course of action, it is time for my 30 days of gratitude list.

1-Nov My husband's blood sugar has come way down and was in the normal range this morning! I am also extremely grateful for the Shooting Stars team i am apart of in the Fall 5% Challenge.
2-Nov My God loves me just as I am
3-Nov I am walking again! I feel so blessed!
4-Nov My grandchildren came to spend time with me. I just love them to pieces!
5-Nov I am grateful and blessed with a loving family who come together as often as possible.
6-Nov Relaxing days with no obligations except to myself

That is it from me for now.
God bless you and keep you on your journey! Have a fabulous day!
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    Dont be mad at yourself- please~ You recognize the frenzy and strengthened your resolve! You are doing awesome and one day does not change your course!
    1727 days ago
    Barb, there is no need to beat yourself up. You had food you don't normally eat. You didn't enjoy it as much as you wanted. You regret your decision and now you decided to not miss a beat, but continue on to healthy habits that make you feel good and be happy with yourself. And you decided to bless us with this insightful blog. I have had a few off days recently where I made poor choices. As long as I remember that they are conscious choices, I feel the power I have over my actions. So I move on and work on making better choices the next time.

    I am very proud of you, my friend!! You are a winner!

    1727 days ago
    Barb you have identified your 'red light foods', they trigger you and make you regret eating them.

    I am wishing you a happy week and another weight loss. emoticon
    1727 days ago
    This is a great blog, Barb, witnessing the mind-body connection. White flour is problematic and triggers all kinds of low energy behavioral patterns. No wonder you felt so low. But kudos to you for realizing the very next day and getting back on track. Everything begins with awareness and you put yourself back on the program.

    When we are with others it is a challenge to stick with our food program that we have at home. We want to be part of our social group and 'blend in' with the love vibe going around. In my late fifties, I am letting go of the need for the approval of others and living by my own code of freedom. Next week is my grandson's birthday and I will be tested. I want to celebrate the love but not to hurt my body-mind any more. Yeah, my standards for myself are higher and lower than they used to be!

    Hugs to you, beautiful soul.
    Shine bright, Shooting Star!

    1727 days ago
    OK, I'm no expert, but here's my two cents based upon my year and a half on SP and losing weight...

    1. There are going to be ups and downs along the way. To think that there aren't going to be is unrealistic. I found this quote just the other day and it was just what I needed to see because I'm struggling right now. "Not only is the journey a long, winding one, but it's also an inconsistent one, thanks to a little thing called life."
    2. I sometimes give myself the leeway to have a "cheat day". I don't do these often - maybe once every three months for a special occasion. This gives me the opportunity to have those foods that I'm missing the rest of the time and get that craving out of the way (Last new years eve I made chili cheese fries and wings, both from scratch so I could control what went into it and so I could still track it. It was incredible!). The risk here is that the next day you don't go back to eating healthy. That is the risk and it sounds like you experienced some of that. However, I think the risk is bigger (for me) in not giving myself these days because I'm going to cheat eventually and if it isn't planned I'm going to feel like I failed and a loser and I broke my diet. With the cheat day strategy, I just hop back on the program. That being said...
    3. You have to find what works for you! Just because a cheat day works for me, doesn't mean it will for you. It sounds like maybe you're best staying away from your trigger foods. Me, I couldn't imagine a life without a potato chip again.
    4. Its good that you recognized what was happening and cut it off half way through the day. So often we think today is a failure and continue eating all day and start over fresh the next day. If we "nip it in the bud" half way through you'll save an amazing amount of calories. And finally...
    5. You go girl! I still think you're amazing!

    (And I didn't proofread any of this so I apologize for the typos and misspellings.)

    1727 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    Barb, I know how you feel. As you know we are all human, and for whatever reason, things just happen. When this happened for me I was so mad at myself. You and I have worked hard to get to this point on this challenge. So follow your advice you gave to me, just start back, put the past to rest and continue on.

    I want you to know hubby and I went for a walk in the park. It was because of you I did it. I didn't want to go, but I thought of you, and how hard you've been training, so I thought to myself if you can make yourself go out and walk so could I. So I give you the credit today for my exercise. You and our teammates are going to get to our healthy goals, you just wait and see.

    I also do agree with you that eating foods we haven't or we know aren't healthy does a number on us. It throws off our body. Here's to a healthy food day for you. emoticon
    1727 days ago
  • TAMIP62
    You can do it! Those "bad" carbs that convert into sugar (starchy carbs) are SOOOOO addictive. Once you give in, just a little, they bring on a craving that is so crazy it can be hard to control. You know you're strong, now you have to know you have forgiveness in your soul--for yourself. Stuff happens. You caught it, and that's the main thing. You'll be fine.
    1727 days ago
    Keep at it
    1727 days ago
    You realised what you were doing, accepted that you had 'fallen' and got right back on to that horse. I consider that a win. Well done you.
    1727 days ago
    Do not beat yourself up you are human. You had bad day but got up and started again.. good you did not weigh as would have threw you off agsin๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘
    1727 days ago
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