Feeding the Frenzy
Sunday, November 06, 2016
Well I have just had my first mindless bout of eating since being on this journey. I am so upset! I really am not sure what was going on but last night i got real depressed and nothing out of the ordinary happened. I spent the entire evening with a "woe is me" attitude. I woke up this morning still depressed and the feeding frenzy began. Nothing seemed to matter including my healthy eating and weight loss. The cloud has finally lifted and I am so angry with myself for how i was eating. I am thinking a lot of it was brought on by eating things at the party i would not normally eat. It started with the 6 foot sub sandwich they had there. I just had a small portion but it was full of white flour and processed meats. Both of which I swore off of more than a year ago. Then my mom brought her baked bean casserole that I dearly loved so I had some of that. It had bacon and american cheese. Two more things I do not eat. To top it off my daughter brought Lays potato chips something I dearly love but do not eat. So of course I had a small amount. I am really still not sure why I gave in to all the temptations. Normally that would not be a problem. I just usually take food I can eat. I believe I probably overloaded my system with chemicals and preservatives my body is no longer used to having.
When the cloud of depression finally lifted and realized just what all I had done, I was tempted to go weigh myself to see how bad the damage was but I am not giving in to that desire. Instead I am just going to go back to eating healthy and exercising. I just hope I can work this back off. Nothing is more discouraging to see than a scale when your numbers have increased. So I am going to wait until the end of the week and pray that I can at least get back to what I was this last week. The old adage that says "If you fall off a horse, get right back on" is so true. The longer you wait to correct your mistake, the more chances are that you never will.
So as of this moment I am taking a stand. I refuse to let food when the fight over my health. I will not give up now. I have come to far and have had a taste of what success will look like. So my next meal today will be a healthy one. I will do all of my exercises and I will go walking this afternoon!!
Well now that I have owned up to what I did and have decided the next course of action, it is time for my 30 days of gratitude list.
1-Nov My husband's blood sugar has come way down and was in the normal range this morning! I am also extremely grateful for the Shooting Stars team i am apart of in the Fall 5% Challenge.
2-Nov My God loves me just as I am
3-Nov I am walking again! I feel so blessed!
4-Nov My grandchildren came to spend time with me. I just love them to pieces!
5-Nov I am grateful and blessed with a loving family who come together as often as possible.
6-Nov Relaxing days with no obligations except to myself
That is it from me for now.
God bless you and keep you on your journey! Have a fabulous day!