Paying the price. Rant.
Monday, December 05, 2016
This sucks. I overdid this weekend at work. I spent yesterday using a cane to get around. The only reason I'm walking and not in severe pain today is because my doctor put me on two muscle relaxants. Not one, TWO. Even with the help I'm finding it difficult to function. I want to take the day off work but that's more work than showing up and planning my lessons around my disability.
I hate fibromyalgia. I hate rheumatoid arthritis. I hate that I'm 32 and I have been dealing with this mess since I was 11. I hate that this is interfering with my enjoyment of the holidays. And I hate that after I fly home in 11 days I'm going to be bad again because 24 hours of traveling is enough to bother a normal person. I hate that I can't control this. And I hate losing my independence to my disabilities.