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Here we go again. I feel like a broken record.

Monday, January 09, 2017

Well, in more ways than 1, I am SOOOO glad to say goodbye to 2016. Nothing but health issues plagued me all year long. The last couple of months it was my back. I am at a point that I LITERALLY can't do anything physical w/o it going out. I went to PT & the gal that worked with me was fantastic. We figured out my whole pelvis tips back, & then I can't bend over. When it does that, my SI joint goes out. She taught me simple stretches to get them back in place. It's nothing gross or creepy, there are no loud pops or snaps, it just quietly without any pain or even feeling it goes back in place. Problem is, I do dishes, 5 min into it, it goes out. I do laundry, it goes out, vacuuming... out, & worst yet, I can't WORK, b/c it makes it worse than anything else. My last 3 massage clients I almost screamed out in pain once done b/c I could hardly move. The 1 client I had to grab my massage table & accidentally grabbed her arm. Luckily all my clients are very understanding & she didn't mind at all. I got out of the massage room somehow (when this happens, I can barely walk, the pain is so horrific in my bootay). She came out, had her check already made out, she was having knee surgery the next day, so we didn't schedule another appointment, she left & once she got in her car, I SCREAMED for my husband upstairs to come help me. I was in tears & couldn't get up our basement stairs (this was before I knew what was happening & how to fix it). That was the last time I massaged, Dec 1st. Even though I can get both back in place, they won't stay. I'm not exaggerating, the ONLY thing that keeps it from going out? Is doing absolutely NOTHING! This from a gal that LOVES to go for walks, had a love/hate love affair with the elliptical, enjoyed doing all kinds of things outdoors. Now? & I'm crying saying this, I can't even lift my sweet 2 yr old granddaughter. All those other things I can live without. Not being able to get on the floor & play with her? Help her into a swing? Or even push her in the swing? THAT's where the depression comes in.

SO, I ended the year just as bad as I started it. In pain, angry, depressed, & frustrated with no answers how to fix it. Spine specialist just wants to throw pain meds at me that I'm scared to death to take, OR do an epidural. Hoping getting the inflammation down will help keep them in place. Wondering if massages would do that? That was a rhetorical question, yes, it could/would, & I have a gal that said she could/would, but she's a really busy lady.

I'm making my "new start" 1-7-17. Easier for me to remember. My goal is minimum 5#s loss per month, with a max of 10#s. Every 5% I will do something special for myself. Every 10% loss I will buy myself a new piece of clothing. I'm at the highest I've ever been in my life & I HAD to hit after Christmas sales to buy a few things to get me by until I get back into my "normal" big clothes. {{{sigh}}}. I did find some cute, hip threads, though. LOL! Am I showing my "maturity" (my substitute for the words age/old).

Anywho, I hope being strict with food will at least help me get some weight off to help the back? Although, the PT & spine guy both said the history of all my injuries causing rampant arthritis in my spine is more likely the culprit. We all know, though, the weight is adding to the difficulties. I'm not making excuses, just explaining the complexity of being able to get the weight off. It's not going to be easy, but it's a necessity for my heart. Here's to a new year & hopefully, a new start. Bring it on, 2017.
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    So sorry for your back pain and issues. And yes, weight loss will help. Hoping and praying that 2017 is much much better for you!!!
    1588 days ago
    I hope you're feeling better soon, Ruth! emoticon
    1588 days ago
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