Starting over AGAIN. Lol.
Sunday, February 12, 2017
Well, I'm back.
Starting over AGAIN.
I'd be upset with myself... but oddly enough the more I find myself back at this point in my life the more I notice I'm ok. I'm back because I want to be healthier. But I've finally realized that my weight on scale doesn't have much to do with that.
I want to be healthier because this past summer I found out how AMAZING it feels to go backpacking. Hiking. Camping. Fishing.
I had to climb over these huge rocks to get all the way out here when I took the picture above and then I had to climb a 15 foot tall wall using a rope in order to reach the top. It was one of the best days in my life. I was SOOOO tired. But that moment when I reached the top I felt like I'd conquered the world. I can't wait to do it again this summer.
I found out I want to travel. I want to climb mountains. I want to sky dive and zip line and ride horses and jet ski. Everything. There's so much out there and for years I stayed home thinking I couldn't do those things.
I went to Atlanta last year. Then I went again this year for two weeks (my job allowed me to work remotely so I only took 1 day off). I took a road trip up to Lake Superior in MN and went backpacking near the Canadian border. Then I took a road trip by myself from Atlanta to New Orleans. I walked on the beach in Biloxi MS and picked sea shells while the sun came up. Absolutely fell in love and can't wait to do it again.
I did really well at one and lost around 50lbs. Then gained it all back in the next 8 months or so when my relationship was on the rocks.
It ended. 8 years - and it's over. It's kinda sad but it was a long time coming. I will admit it has kinda scared me off relationships a bit. But I'm not overly worried since after the breakup I've found out how HAPPY I can be. How much I can do. How amazing I am.
There's so much more I want to do.
While I'm not super crazy about the weight on the scale I did make it up to 268lbs this winter. I'm bringing that number down. I promised myself I would take better care of my body and I've noticed an improvement in some health problems that were bugging me a little. I've managed to lose about 12-13 lbs in the past 6 weeks since making my New Years Resolution. Summer is still a ways away and I'm already so much stronger. I can't wait to see what I can do this summer!!!!
And Next summer... :-D
It's gonna be awesome.
I'm on an amazing journey. We shall see where it takes me!