12 May 18 * Wake-up Call *
Saturday, May 12, 2018
Oh my word!
I cannot believe what I saw on the scale this morning. 250.6! That is the highest I have ever been. Thinking back at all the emotional eating, the stress of an out-of-state move including selling and buying a home on a tight timeline, the general disinterest in doing anything considered exercise, and just trying to make it through each day, it's no wonder the scale is tipping upward.
My wonderful Hubby got a great job in NC and started there in March. I am staying in OH until school gets out in early June, living at my MIL's since our house here sold quickly. Living apart has been hard, but it will be worth it in the end. He has made a few weekend trips back and we Skype every night so it could be worse. We are truly blessed by this opportunity in NC and it is an answer to prayer. Within the last 10 days the movers packed all our stuff, loaded the truck, we closed on our OH house, we closed on our new NC house, the movers unloaded everything at the new house and we did all the school and sport activities in between. Whew! It's been a heck of a whirlwind.
I really needed this wake up call. I have been so negligent with my health. My thoughts and emotions have been all over, so that contributes to with my bad eating habits and lack of motivation to exercise. I've been riding the high of excitement about the move and at the same time struggling with the stress of all that is on my shoulders right now. I really am shocked I let it get so bad. I was just coasting along, indulging in treats with the kids, feeling so good about life, getting through the harder parts one task at a time. Well, that coasting and indulging put some extra pounds on me. I have gained 6 pounds since my last weigh in 3 weeks ago, but I was already at the top of my numbers then. 250.6! What the heck!?!
No more donuts, sodas, fancy coffee drinks, cookies, milkshakes. No more drive-thrus! Since I have been taking the kids to school since they don't ride the bus now, I have about 30 minutes between the time I drop the oldest 2 at middle school and the youngest at elementary school. Well, Dunkin Donuts is right next to the schools. Sooooo, a coffee for me, a donut for my kiddo, or Muchkins to share. Plus living with my MIL is interesting. She constantly wants to feed us. Too many meals out - breakfasts, Taco Tuesday, celebratory lunches and dinners for piano recital, soccer games, signing papers for both houses...She doesn't really need a reason.
*FOCUS* my word for 2018. I've lost focus on my health, my body. Time to reorganize, get moving, make better choices. One thing I am really looking forward to is that our new home in NC has a walking trail through the whole development (it's built on an old golf course) and we have a clubhouse with a pool and fitness room. But - I don't need to wait until I get down there. Changes can start today. The day is almost over, but I can have restraint on my dinner choices and limit the evening snacking to an apple or clementine. No ice cream, chips, cookies, or fresh baked bread. (I'm a sucker for bread.)
Tonight I'm going to go to a quiet place (probably early to my bedroom) and make a journal entry (which I haven't done since before the movers came!), making some realistic goals and lists and really praying about my next steps. I need to get back into my quiet time as well. I miss my time with God. I have been enjoying worshipping along with the radio during all this time in the car. I need refreshed. I did pack a couple bins of stuff to have handy here at my MIL's and that includes my Bible, devotionals and journal. Time to dig them out and get renewed.
My new adventure starts now - not in June when we move, not next week, not tomorrow morning - tonight!
Time to get my water bottle filled, my walking shoes ready, and a meal plan in place!
Have a blessed evening!