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Starting Over

Wednesday, October 31, 2018

Well...it's sucks to start over but this is just the consequence of my choices for the last 6 months.

I injured a ligament (badly) and I couldn't do any exercise, not even dumbbells as there was risk of further injury. So I started to feel scared and frustrated and I ate it all. I ate my feelings, my frustration, my shame...

I know that is not an excuse and how wonderful would it be if the food eaten to quiet the soul had 0 calories...but this is the real world and actions have consequences and now I have to deal with mine.

I weighted myself to day, to get the starting point and I'm trying to get a sense of propose out of it (instead of the horrible shame I feel).

I planned my meals, I've been following the plan and I'll do what I can with what I have, even if I can't do a proper workout yet.

I'll eat right, count calories, track my food, drink my water, journal and I'll try to keep a smile on my face.

This might be a (huge) step back, but I think I can learn from it and gain some perspective. In the end, I'm only human and I have to learn to love and forgive myself if I want to succeed in this journey.

I think I need to learn new coping mechanisms (no more binge eating when I'm upset) and I'm starting to get the idea that I won't be able to do it alone,

Here is to starting again and the hope that this will be the last time I fall.
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    Back when I first joined WW no one ever even mentioned exercise, yet we lost weight. emoticon
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    Don't give up or in
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  • 4CYNDI
    **HUGS** It is hard and frustrating when an injury sidelines you. The main thing though is that you are picking yourself up and starting to make healthy changes. You are starting small and finding things you *can* do to make your life better, even without the exercise you did before.

    Have fun on your journey!
    1000 days ago
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