Not sure how I feel
Tuesday, May 28, 2019
My son called me tonight and told me he got a new job. I knew he was interviewing for it and he was sure he wouldn't get it. Surprise! At this moment, he lives about and hour and a half away from me. This new job takes him 3 hours away and into an even bigger city than he lives in now. They want him there in 2 weeks.
I'm proud of him, don't get me wrong. I'm just not sure how I feel about this. I don't get to see him enough as it is. I usually drive to see him on Mother's Day, take his father down on Father's Day, go see him for my birthday, his birthday and his father's birthday. He's been making Easter dinner for the past couple of years. When my mother comes to visit, we drive to see him. Three hours one way is a little too far to drive for all of those occasions.
He's been teaching the 4th grade at the same school for the past 10 years. He's the president of the union for his school district. This new job is with the union and takes him out of the classroom. He'll be more in an administrative position.
I think it might be because he's my first born and I don't want him that far away. I want him to be happy, but I want him to be close, lol. I'm hoping maybe he will find someone to be with and love. I'm hoping this is the right move for him. I hope this job is all he wants and that he doesn't regret leaving the classroom.
Guess I kind of know what my parents went through when I left for the Army a year after I graduated high school. I've never returned to live in the state that they are in. Come to think of it, I live 3 hours or so away from them. When I go visit them, I stay for a few days. I won't be able to do that with my son.
I wish my son happiness in the next chapter of his life. I just wish this chapter brought him closer to home instead of further away.
Guess I do know how I feel after all.