Wow, it really has been an incredibly long time since I have been here. I logged on for the first time an a loooooong time. It is cool to see some of the same faces hanging out here. Hello, Sparkland -- how are you?
Yes, it has been awhile since I have been here. Yes, a lot has changed. All of it for the better. I think I mentioned awhile ago (last time I was on here maybe...?) I bought a program called Balance 365. It has been the single best gift I have ever given to myself. It is the program that has finally settled my endless pendulum swing of on again/off again with dieting and the mindset therein. It is no secret that I have struggled there. Pretty hard. Okay, really hard. Dieting consumed a solid portion of my adult life. I started my first diet at the age of 21 when I walked into the doors of a Weight Watcher's meeting after having my first baby -- I never realized what impact that had on me until I was much older. I really started to get sick and tired of the turbulence that dieting was after I had my now 8 year old. I remember being insanely exhausted, coming off of the hormones of having a baby and being bombarded with the constant reminder of how *wrong* I was in my post-natal shape. Its wrong what that industry has done. The lives it has destroyed. The amount of people it has preyed upon. I remember seeking out alternatives in my sleep deprived state and knew I was done with it. I knew at it's core, I wasn't broken. I wasn't wrong. I remember stumbling across Go Kaleo and she really was the key for me to see the light. I joined her Facebook group called Eating the Food and that really began my diet deprogramming. I feel like I existed in limbo for awhile knowing that there was a gray area to either being on a diet or the *donuts and dorritos* phase I was well into when I gave up dieting. Come to find out, learning to eat all the food was a necessary first step toward recovery for me. I had to calm all of the built up restrictions I put on myself over the years. I had to realize that cookies were okay and so was salad. I think back to that time in my life and attribute it to being like Neo in The Matrix and being faced with either the red pill or the blue pill
I felt like I had been awoken to the harsh realities of what that life was all about. Had I lost weight? Sure but the cost of it was too much for me. I looked at those pills and opted to stay in Wonderland and I am glad that I did. I have stayed here for awhile and I did roll with Georgie Fear's Lean Habits for quite awhile and I found a lot of amazing things within her words and the book she wrote. But I saw a flash sale for Balance 365 and gifted myself the program. The three women behind the program and insanely awesome. Women I highly respect and admire. They've *been there, done that* with regards to dieting. They have built up an amazing community and the way that they lead is amazing and relatable. The B365 program is built off of Georgie Fear's work but it is laid out in a highly intuitive manor. I have managed to dig myself out of my past even further since I joined the program. The biggest thing I have learned is how to really balance a meal. It sounds crazy, but it is true. I have taken it small piece by small piece and habit by habit and have learned to lay that foundation with the bigger rocks so I can continue on my health and wellness journey with the smaller rocks. I eat 30 to 40 g of protein at each meal, I am balancing healthy carbs, healthy fats and I eat a ton of freggies at each meal. It has been done one piece at a time. I really allowed myself the opportunity (and gift) to put everything else on the back burner (fat loss goals primarialy) so I could learn how to create a life of freedom with regards to eating. It really is amazing the amount of freedom that comes without being tied by the restrictions I have placed upon myself in the past.
It is amazing how when a meal is properly balanced that:
* the need/desire to snack is no longer there
* it is easier to learn to navigate true hunger signals
* it is easier to tap into satiety signals (what they call Goldilocks in the B365 program)
At it's core the program is all about learning how to balance meals, tap into hunger, hone in on Satiety/Goldilocks, healthy movement, NEAT activity and not be bound by any rigorous eating program. I have been able to experience a little bit of fat loss from the small changes I have made in my life, which is amazing, but it really has become less of a goal of mine. I really enjoy being able to have a healthy relationship with food and fitness for the first time in my life. It is everything I thought it would be, too.
I'll talk more on the rest of the habits later, but I really wanted to pop in and say hello to everyone and just put it out there that I am still hanging around and doing actually very well.