June 7 2020
Sunday, June 07, 2020
A week ago I gave myself a long weekend. Well, actually since I was "on call" over the weekend and ended up working 16 hours on Sunday I had 40+ hours in by Wednesday so I took Thursday and Friday off in addition to the weekend.
What I did with some of that "free time" was think. I was also feeling the residual pain of working that 16 hour day on Sunday.
I had taken a new position at work last Feb. that is more sedentary than my previous position of Unit Manager on a secure dementia unti. As a result of additional sedentariness, I put on 10 lbs that I could not afford to put on. My clothing felt tight. I was TIRED. I HURT. I'm over 60. There's a virus out there that I have to take great pains not to catch for fear it will kill me or my patients!.
For the first time, I found myself seriously looking at the possibility of gastric bypass surgery. The nurse practitioner that I see has mentioned it once or twice over the past several years.
I looked up details about the various options. I checked into what people have to do before surgery and how long they might have to do it. I read what happens after surgery, how people need to eat. What they can and can't eat. How much (or little) they will eat. How often they need to eat. How long the "healing" process is.
I know people who have done the surgery and are happy with the results. I also know people who have what are lifelong problematic issues because of the surgery and that is the primary reason I have not chosen to do it. Yet. It's not actually "off the table".
So what I did do, was to do what someone would have to do in prep for surgery. Since I have not had the preparatory blood work, I did decide that my goal would be to break the bad habits that I had been doing--the snacking, the eating too much at the evening meal. I did the liquid high protein option for a few days. By day three, I was chronically hungry (I'm not really very nice when I'm hungry).
One of the things I discovered is, the diet is low carb, low cal and high protein. Hence, it puts you into ketosis. People, prior to surgery, need to lose the weight to help cut down on the fat around the liver to make surgery less dangerous. Since I am not, at this point, going to have surgery, I have a little more leeway. I had soup...with vegies...and barley. It made me feel MUCH better and less hungry. My calorie count was still low (below 1000 kcal/day. I kept the carb level low. I started this last Sunday. I lost 7 lbs in the first 3 days. One additional pound came off for the rest of the week.
I now need to find my way. How to eat enough but not too much. To keep weight coming off but not too fast. I need take in enough to support my body's needs so as not to make myself ill , but to not stall the process. There's a fine line here. I need to find it and maintain it.