Saturday, August 29, 2020
This applies on so many fronts. I've finally hit the 10 pound mark (yay!) and that is something that has eluded me for the past couple of years. Heck, the five pound park was elusive.
. But, slow and steady wins the race. It's just reinforcing that all those good habits that went out the window. Well, I need to keep the window shut. Tracking is also helpful. The weird realization is that exercise isn't as big a part of this as I'd thought (or maybe want?). I find that on days I don't exercise and stay within my range, I'm good. I even lose. On days where I do exercise, if I just stay at the bottom of the range, I may lose or stay the same or even gain. It brings home that with exercise you need a little additional fuel. Or, at least I do. It may not be the same for everyone.
I travel this past week back home to go through those things that got held back from the estate sale. I so did not want to do this. It had been hanging over me for months because COVID shutdowns hit right after the estate sale. Flying was good (the Atlanta airport was almost empty, which was weird). I wasn't sure about the hotel, but I just stayed away from people. And, the clean-out. Not as bad as I expected. I thought seeing my childhood home (literally the only home I remember) empty would be just awful. You know how you can build something up. Maybe it's because I've moved several times, but it wasn't hard. It was basically closure.
We are so close to being able to wrap up the estate. It is a relief. And, it's a little freeing. That was a sad and a happy realization. I loved and miss my parents, but they were sometimes difficult. In hindsight, in more ways than I realized. I will always miss them, but it's time to move forward. The past is just that -- we can't change it. But, we can acknowledge, keep our memories and then we need to move on. So, that's what I'm going to do.
There is one more small win. I'm writing this post from my Mom's laptop. It's much new than mine. I'm not sure it will replace mine (it's just not "mine"), but it is much newer and wasn't used all that much. There is no reason for me not to use it. So, I'm dipping my toes in that water.