2020 is in the rearview
Tuesday, January 12, 2021
I have been very down this last few weeks. I am sad about what has been happening in our country. I feel President Trump did a lot of good, at least for my life. I am trying to get my anxiety in check and move on. It cripples me and makes it hard to set goals and move on and I need to.
This past year I lost a solid 10 pounds and can soon be in the 180's if I apply myself and I intend too. I have been home on leave since the 1st of November after having both knees totally replaced. I am well on my way to recovery so this will no longer be limiting me.
My newest Son in Law's Father attempted suicide late last Winter and they took him off life support on Memorial Day. It was such a difficult time. His matriarchal Grandmother succumbed to cancer also early last Spring. He and my daughter both have varying degrees of cerebral palsy. They got married Dec. of 2019 and have lived here with us over a year now, dealt with the pandemic and their college studies moving to online. Being largely stuck here together at the home since neither drives. (We do have a handicapped van for transportation). Though aids and family have taken them out to very limited events and we have had some family members and aids go through quarantines, we have remained healthy. In spite of these challenges, we have supported each other. I have seen their love grow. My SIL is in his last semester at school though online studies have been challenging. I am so proud of how well we have done and how strong they have been.
We got through Christmas with my husband having his second total knee replacement also. We made cutbacks as we had to. Family and neighbors brought meals in for weeks for us and we were richly blessed with service.
I just am realizing that though I know the challenges aren't over. I will return to work at the hospital in a couple of weeks. I have had my first vaccination for covid. The kids are scheduled for theirs. I just have to believe we are all going to survive it all. I am a woman of faith and believe we are not likely to have days free of challenges very often but I know that there is always room and enough love to see us through the challenges this life may bring.
I look forward to getting back to my walking, returning to serve the patients, getting back to our remodeling projects on this old house, eating better and continuing to triumph over the depression I battle. I will insist on 2021 bringing us some cheer and some more weight loss sparks.