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Why Am I Doing This, Where Am I Going and Will I Ever Get There?

Tuesday, February 02, 2021

I am sitting here a day before weigh in and wondering why I'm still here. I've been a member of SparkPeople for almost 3 years and although I've lost some weight it isn't nearly as much as I'd expected or hoped for. So, I'm asking myself 'why'. I should be doing some other things but I keep putting them off because I'm spending so much time planning my workouts, meal plan for the upcoming week or filling in my charts I've made to keep me on target Am I wasting my time? NO!

I began this journey because when I was working I devoted all my time to my work (which I loved doing - I was a teacher) and my family and when the kids moved on with their adult lives and I retired I felt I could finally focus on 'me'. I had gained unwanted weight over the years and shedding those extra pounds I discovered is much more difficult as you age. But, now I'm here and must deal with what is. So, the whys are this...
1. I want to weigh less to ease the stress on my joints
2. I want to have more energy
3. I want to fit into a more reasonable size clothing
4. I want to be able to 'keep up' with my grandchildren
5. I want to sleep better
6. I want a healthier lifestyle
7. I want more stamina
8. I want more endurance.....
and on and on the list goes.

I am on a journey to a place where I have more confidence (I forgot to put that on my why list). I know I'm on the right path but the terrain is rough and there are a lot of obstacles in the way. There are times when I stumble and fall but then there are days when I'm full of energy and cover a lot of ground. Sometimes I make choices that bring me down the wrong path and I have to backtrack to get back on track. I've come to realize that my journey will take longer than I thought but I am determined to move forward and go at a pace I can maneuver. If I get in a rut I keep pushing ahead.
I know that eventually I'll get to my destination. I'm doing a lot of things right and I've learned along the way. I'm developing some good habits that will serve me in the future. I get up every morning and say my prayers. I eat a nutritious (most of the time) breakfast. (Breakfast and lunch sometimes become one meal) and I try to get in some veggies in the afternoon. I usually get in a minimum of 30 minutes of exercise at least 5 days and most days get 45-60 minutes in. I take 1 or 2 days to rest and recharge. I am making myself a priority and taking each day as it comes. I have a positive attitude and am patient. I'm mindful and determined to learn as I go and develop the skills I need to live a healthy, happy, joy filled life on a journey to the best version of myself. My day will come and until then I'll put one foot in front of the other and find gratitude in daily moments.
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    Oh Trudy, you had me worried while I was reading your first paragraph. I have been a member of Sparkpeople for 12 years! I reached my highest weight while I was a member. But I too am thankful I stayed. I think it would have been worse without Sparkpeople. And I have learned so much. I had to try this and that before I settled on the way I am losing weight now. I had to know myself better and understand what was going on. I am so thankful for Sparkpeople and for the Minions. Thank you for not giving up on yourself. I love your optimism and your attitude about continuing on. Together we are better. emoticon
    169 days ago
  • MJPECK7015
    Thanks for sharing, Trudy. I can feel your determination! You've got what it takes, that's for sure.
    171 days ago
    Well written thank you.
    172 days ago
    Hi Trudy! Thank you for sharing your journey! I love your mindset. It is one of patience and acceptance. Your goals are reasonable and reachable. I need to remind myself to set those types of goals. It is so easy for me to want everything right away. Thank you for sharing! Keep on keeping on!
    172 days ago
    Great list of whys.. you will get there for sure. Take patience in the journey and continue learning and growing as you shrink! :) Go team Minion!
    173 days ago
  • DEE797
    I really like your blog. You can feel the positive vibes coming from it. Wishing you success on your journey! emoticon
    173 days ago
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