I Came and I Conquered (?? Or DID I?)
Saturday, March 13, 2021
My blog post that preceded this one, from a couple of days ago put it out there boldly that I NEED to see a success and pretty soon. I’m fighting a war on two fronts: on a fluids restriction and my efforts to keep my calorie count low –and not only seeing low calories but striving for a good nutritional balance as well. I’m happy to say that for the past two or three days, I’ve met my goals in both areas. It is true that I’m low on groceries and snacks and that kind of makes it easier to “Just say No” because you don’t have any choice in the matter.
I’m having some serious problems chewing because I’m midstream in a dental project, getting four crowns and a bridge…Right now I have temporary crowns in—and two of them have fallen out. So I have to chew carefully and on one side of my mouth. Because I recently had a major extraction where the roots of the tooth went down into my jawbone…the socket has taken a LONG time to heal…and it still is really tender.
Anyway. None of that is important except to say eating has been no fun and is, in fact, singularly unenjoyable. You would think cravings would stop, wouldn’t you? But no. They are alive and active. I’m having a serious chocolate craving as I type this…and think maybe a reduced calorie (35) hot cocoa might be in order. The only problem is that it will mean sacrificing one of the two remaining drinks I am allowed to drink today. (I’m on a medical fluid restriction)
Anyway. I have been working on my “Shine” and it is beginning tenuously to peek out from the clouds of the last two weeks. Tomorrow is weight day and I’m in the dark as to what it will show. But I’m glad that I’ve turned the ship around and am heading finally in the right direction.
When I sadly told my life coach of the 5 lbs i recently regained --FOLLOWING a period of excellent numbers and success at keeping both calories and cc's low. I was so discouraged and then Beth said something so obvious and obviously right that it had not even occurred to me. "IT"S WATER WEIGHT" and I spent much of yesterday trying to figure out why my chin has another one right below it and why my face looks either like i weigh much more than i do or else that i'm midway through a course of IV steroids.
So, if i've been doing everything right, how can I gain that much water? And I know what the root of it is. IT's the fluid restriction! This always happens to me. I"m calling the nephrologist (kidney doctor) tomorrow and protesting. We'll see what he says.