Stressful Job == Stressful Eating
Friday, April 16, 2021
Writing daily journals helps me get things out. Some days are bad, others meh and some days good. This week has kinda been all three.
Monday was meh cause well it's Monday. Tuesday was bad. I had to be up at 3AM with a customer for work. I had asked REALLY specifically do you ACTUALLY need me and they swore up and down yes. Yeah they really didn't. That was fun. Got some work done, but that customer is a very stressful customer to hand hold. I guess I shouldn't say it was bad, but just really stressful. I have to learn to qualify that better. I got off around 1230PM and then took a nap and then got out to walk. That was OK.
Wednesday was bad. Like real bad. I've thought that I get hired for jobs thanks to technical knowledge, but Wednesday shook that hard. All that day people kept taking away technical work and telling me that they just loved working with me cause I was....nice. I HATE being called NICE. It's 21st century IT talk for you're a girl and we make you deal with the mean people. I do IT for the tech stuffs, not the customer part. I HATE the customer part despite my skill in it. You don't pay me what you do JUST for my fake nice voice and fake smile, you pay for my technical skill. Recognize me for that. Not my nice. That's the crap men in IT Play to make women in IT feel inferior. Did it for 15 years now and I know it when I see it.
That also ruined Thursday and made it a bad day for me as I came to grips with it. Same customer that I was up with at 3AM I had be be on at 7PM last night for two hours. Sigh.
Today (Friday) isn't well total horsepoop but my stupid tech support underlings yet again screwed up with a hot customer and all day all I've gotten to do is fix their mess which is messing my day up. That makes me mad.
That is at the heart of why I stress eat. My job absolutely slaughters me some days and I just can't handle it. This week has been good. I've been sticking to my plan and I haven't stress ate. I do use CBD edibles and gummies (max 3 gummies once a day or 3 edibles a day) and they are helping me. Makes me relax a bit. I'm hoping that coupled with therapy will help me move away from stress eating.
Anyways it's weekend, it's 75 degrees in the Seattle metro and it's time for fun.