Now that it's done
Sunday, April 18, 2021
DH and I got shot #2 yesterday and the anticipation, expectation, conditioned response is killing me! Not literally -- ha! As much as I prepared mentally for this by reading and checking with others, I still wondered what my experience would be. And realizing that what will be, will be, we spent part of yesterday afternoon working in the yard.
We cut back grasses, trimmed a tree, raked leaves and branches, sprayed weeds, filled bird bath and feeders, and talked about landscaping changes.
And even though my upper arm "felt" like it was sore when I raked and hoed, I wonder whether that was my subconscious trying to tell me I should stop while I'm ahead. There could be serious repercussions if I got sore and tired from working and that would be on top of being sore and tired and achy and feverish from the shot.
I decided not to listen to that inner voice and we finished what we intended to do. I dressed a bit warmer for bed because I'd read of people getting chills. I didn't get chills. I don't have a fever. I stayed in bed longer just because I could. I'll probably take a nap today, just because I can.
Relying on a worst-case scenario just to make things easier in the short term is not the right choice. Inform yourself, don't hold yourself back. Be aware, don't be afraid. Be confident, don't tell yourself you can't do it. I'm not saying anything new here, although it helps me to write the words and say them to myself.
Now that the shot is history and I'm feeling pretty much OK, I'm looking forward to having a nice non-stressful day. A bit of work outside, some laundry, maybe even a nap. Because I can.