just sayin’ … baby steps
Sunday, May 09, 2021
I’m taking baby steps back into the real world. Today is Mother’s Day and I plan to give myself a gift.
A gift of … peace.
As I weighed in this morning and the scale registered 218 … again … it flashed before my eyes that I have regained the 10 pounds I blood, sweat and tears pulled off.
Coz dear BFF suddenly died from a brain aneurysm.
Hubby suffered another manic episode including a psychotic break.
Well, that’s good reasons … right???
Hubby is doing good. We stair stepped off some meds Wednesday morning … next cut is Tuesday night. Just a couple more weeks and we will be on level ground again. He knows that his doc is retiring in November. So, the search will begin for another ol’ soul.
I did really good taking care of ME during Hubby’s issues … walking 5x a week and eating only when I was physically hungry. I peeled off 14 pounds getting down to 208.1 and was starting to feel good. Since BFF Sharon’s death … I have eaten everything not nailed down and sat on my b@tt. And I feel like the crap I have been eating.
WatermEllen’s blogs sure do stir the brain cells. I have decided I am worth the effort to be comfortable in my own skin. Sharon laid down to get a good night sleep and never woke up. She never finished allllll the things she started or did the things she said she really wanted to. I have been walking around … half dead.
I have a great life.
I love my David immensely.
I have tons of material … things.
But I have unfinished business that is important to … ME.
No plan of attack.
A kinder, gentler way of treating … ME.
Change your mind … and the rest WILL follow.