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5/13 the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

Thursday, May 13, 2021

the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day was yesterday.

I don't know what happened. I just knew it was going to be a Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day when I ate my 2 o'clock snack at 9 am. I ate breakfast at 7:30 am which was okay. I ate lunch at 9:45. Yep. it was going to be bad.

What made it bad, you say? I went grocery shopping after my 9 am snack (jenny craig, ranch snaps . they are like salty veggie straws with ranch flavoring) I got mini muffins (on sale )for my kids and veggie straws and a few other items on my list. I came home and ate my lunch, not because I was hungry but because I wanted it.

Then I ate a small bag of veggie straws because I thought, these are like the ranch snaps, so if I have a bit more, that's okay , right?
Then I thought, what is 2 mini muffins? They are so tiny, what does it really matter? I am 138 , I am doing great. Was I hungry now? no, but I wanted it.
I then ate 1/2 of a brownie, because I wanted it.
I then ate 1 chocolate cookie (first one ever on my 17 week diet with Jenny) because I wanted it.
Then I ate the other 1/2 of brownie, because I wanted to finish it.
Then I ate 2, maybe 3, handfuls of M and Ms chocolate covered almonds. My tummy didn't feel so good now. ....

Then I stopped and went, uh oh... Maybe it is still early enough to recover from this? Who was I kidding?

139.5 this morning. My tummy was sticking out again. The old familiar tummy that I knew so well. Disappointed, but understanding and accepting my "fall" from my diet, I woke up and renewed my mind on what I am doing to help myself. How I feel about myself now and how I never want to go back. It's not vanity, but health. I feel better now. I like my new clothes and the way I look in them. I still have a tummy but it is much smaller now. I am so close to the " normal" weight and I don't want to trip at the finish line.

S0 today will be a Wonderful, Fabulous, Beautifully Perfect, Very Good Day. The reason why is because the "thing" , whatever that was, that made me feel "Ravished" is gone.. Maybe we are supposed to have days like that? I can't even pinpoint exactly where I went wrong. It might have started last Monday. My oboe "broke". One of the bumper keys fell off and I panicked. I called a repairman in Dallas and left on a 5.5 hour trip one way. On the way I went to get a tea from McDonald's to help me wake up. I was feeling tired and I ended up hesitantly buying a fried chicken meal, as they had no grilled chicken on the menu, or did they? I didn't have my glasses on and felt rushed to purchased something quick as the line in the drive thru was long. I also drove passed the sign just enough in the drive thru where I was nearly screaming at the mic for her to hear me, shouting out my order for all to hear, so asking questions seemed embarrassing, so I kept the order quick and short. I forgot to ask to replace the fries with something else too. Then I pulled up to the pick up window and she tells me that they don't have tea ( a necessity in staying awake on the 11 hour trip that I started at 2 pm) so I order a large coffee. Not something I normally like black, so she puts sugar and cream in it and that might be the reason for my "fall" yesterday. Like a domino effect, when I have a rare but needed coffee, the next day, I need that coffee again. When I got home, I was SOOO strict the following day (Tuesday) and when Wednesday came, I was RAVISHED that morning. I believe it was the McDonalds. What was in that food???? Seriously. Was it the coffee, the french fries or the bun on the chicken sandwich?

Today, after I weighed myself, I made all the beds, I started 3 loads of laundry today. I ate my JC breakfast and I am about to take a walk. I am at peace today. So I can forgive myself for one Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. I don't want TWO Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Days. Today feels different... it really does. No more McDonalds for me.

Have a Wonderful, Fabulous, Beautifully Perfect, Very Good Day.
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    What's in the food is a good question. I miss eating out but try not to think about it too much, but rather focus on how much I've lost and why. I'd be in trouble if I was on a road trip and had to eat out. I know it'd mess up the rhythm and how my body is processing food. Maintaining mindset is key and one of the most difficult things. You're doing fantastic! emoticon (Actually, I've just been visiting the latest weigh-in results and you are doing better than fantastic having exceeded your 5% already! emoticon )
    35 days ago
    I can totally relate. I tend to be an all-or-nothing person who feels like, "Well, my streak is over, I might as well give up" which makes no sense, I know. I hope Friday was better.

    I also send hugs and prayers for your dad. I haven't been on SP too much this week. Take care, my friend.
    36 days ago
    Oh boy can I ever relate to some of those things you said. It's only a little more, it's just a small amount emoticon , one more bite won't hurt. This helped to get me where I am. Glad you turned it around.
    I am terrible at ordering at a drive-through. I do it so little I am always feeling rushed and never take the time to read that menu. Today I was so hungry I did get a burger to eat when I got home. Only as I was paying did I hear the lady behind me say "and no bun please!" Why didn't I think of that. As it is I threw away the bun and wiped off the mayo and thought I paid money for this. The burger part was good, I put it over some lettuce to make it more filling.
    Keep up the good work!
    37 days ago
    Good job - back to normal eating for you!
    37 days ago
    Omg! Definitely the McDonalds. Every time I do it, I want it again the next day. It is so weird. It tastes good but you feel like crap after eating it and it is the first thing on your mind the next day. It's like they put something in the food to lure you back. I'm thinking salt and fat, lol. I slid back down in the 30's. Your going to be ok! Every time we travel we eat the McD's then it takes forever for me to get over it.
    37 days ago
    I hope you've had a Wonderful, Fabulous, Beautifully Perfect, Very Good Day today!
    You've got what it takes to get back on track.
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    37 days ago
    Give yourself grace & move on. You’re doing a great job!
    38 days ago
    Everybody slips up at one time or another. What worries me is the strictness. Please don't feel guilty, but just accept and move on.
    38 days ago
    We all have days that just beg for food to be consumed - willpower be darned! You pulled it back - yeah! Proud of you!
    38 days ago
    On those days I have a glass of water and think about it :) sometimes it works sometimes not so much ... :)
    38 days ago
    Stop beating yourself up. I do agree that the "being strict with yourself" is not a good mindset. Just take it one day at a time and don't worry about it so much.
    38 days ago
    " I was SOOO strict the following day (Tuesday)": that's what leaps out at me. Not so much the McDs but the punishment after the McDs of excessive strictness?

    I'm with 4A-HEALTHY-BMI: "What doesn’t help me so much personally is to get upset with myself, or adding pressure; usually there’s enough distress going on that being upset with myself or pressuring myself only made it worse."

    38 days ago
    Sounds like the McDonald’s was the trigger. That has definitely been me. I had a healthy plan for a snack or meal on the road and they didn’t have what I was going to order and then my whole eat healthy plan fell apart.
    But good for you for getting back on track right away. I am very proud of you!

    38 days ago
    Patience, acceptance and learning...sounds like "No More McDonald's" may be one lesson...or at least practicing extreme caution around McDonald's.

    What else do you think you can learn from this difficult day?

    Mistakes Are Opportunities For Learning...not for JUDGING! ;-)

    38 days ago
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    38 days ago
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    I also immediately thought of your Dad when I saw today's title. Every new day is a chance to begin anew. Glad you are starting today on the right foot.
    38 days ago
    First of all, emoticon

    You are not alone in these types of experiences; although, as 4A-HEALTHY-BMI has already pointed out ... we are all different creatures in different circumstances.

    I'm going to speak to the "tummy sticking out again ..."

    What immediately came to mind for me upon reading those words was carb associated water retention. Nourish your body with fuel that supports its health and well-being, hydrate and that tummy will likely 'deflate', perhaps, sooner than you'd think.

    Coming to the realization that carb intake beyond a certain point could impact my body like excess salt intake was quite an eye opener for me.

    Count me among those in your corner rooting for you. emoticon
    38 days ago
    Whew! I am not making light of slipups like this, but I saw your title and thought you got "terrible, horrible" really bad news about your Dad.

    OK, back to the problem. Absolutely everyone has days like that, sometimes several in a row.
    That's why it's so important to keep connected here. It's a touchstone to remember why you are doing it and that you are not alone.

    Hang in there.
    38 days ago
    Sounds like a rough patch. emoticon

    It can be really hard to hear what our bodies and minds want/need when swept up in a whirlwind of activities and getting things done. That’s when the kind of days you described happen to me. I think there’s a cumulative effect that sort of wears me down.

    Here are the 3 things that have helped me:

    1) Evaluating whether I was trying to push my weight lower or faster than my body could sustain

    2) Carrying high protein, high fiber emergency rations in case I was caught somewhere and needed to fuel myself

    3) Actively taking 15-20 minutes a day to shut out the world and just BE, to ground myself

    I’ve never been perfect about applying any of those consistently, especially #3, But when I did do them, they helped.

    What doesn’t help me so much personally is to get upset with myself, or adding pressure; usually there’s enough distress going on that being upset with myself or pressuring myself only made it worse.

    Maybe none of that will help or apply to your situation; we’re all different creatures in different circumstances.

    I’m rooting for you. emoticon
    38 days ago
    You can start again at any time. Life is not always easy. You should see my blog. But overeating never helps. Get back on the horse and take one day at a time. emoticon
    38 days ago
  • no profile photo RUNNER11G
    We all have our temptations. One small slip up isn't going to ruin your plans but if you let it get the best of you than your in trouble. Find a way to shut down those cravings when they show up. Maybe it's a picture of yourself at a weight you were not happy with. Good Luck. You've come so far. You can do this!
    38 days ago
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