5/13 the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
Thursday, May 13, 2021
the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day was yesterday.
I don't know what happened. I just knew it was going to be a Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day when I ate my 2 o'clock snack at 9 am. I ate breakfast at 7:30 am which was okay. I ate lunch at 9:45. Yep. it was going to be bad.
What made it bad, you say? I went grocery shopping after my 9 am snack (jenny craig, ranch snaps . they are like salty veggie straws with ranch flavoring) I got mini muffins (on sale )for my kids and veggie straws and a few other items on my list. I came home and ate my lunch, not because I was hungry but because I wanted it.
Then I ate a small bag of veggie straws because I thought, these are like the ranch snaps, so if I have a bit more, that's okay , right?
Then I thought, what is 2 mini muffins? They are so tiny, what does it really matter? I am 138 , I am doing great. Was I hungry now? no, but I wanted it.
I then ate 1/2 of a brownie, because I wanted it.
I then ate 1 chocolate cookie (first one ever on my 17 week diet with Jenny) because I wanted it.
Then I ate the other 1/2 of brownie, because I wanted to finish it.
Then I ate 2, maybe 3, handfuls of M and Ms chocolate covered almonds. My tummy didn't feel so good now. ....
Then I stopped and went, uh oh... Maybe it is still early enough to recover from this? Who was I kidding?
139.5 this morning. My tummy was sticking out again. The old familiar tummy that I knew so well. Disappointed, but understanding and accepting my "fall" from my diet, I woke up and renewed my mind on what I am doing to help myself. How I feel about myself now and how I never want to go back. It's not vanity, but health. I feel better now. I like my new clothes and the way I look in them. I still have a tummy but it is much smaller now. I am so close to the " normal" weight and I don't want to trip at the finish line.
S0 today will be a Wonderful, Fabulous, Beautifully Perfect, Very Good Day. The reason why is because the "thing" , whatever that was, that made me feel "Ravished" is gone.. Maybe we are supposed to have days like that? I can't even pinpoint exactly where I went wrong. It might have started last Monday. My oboe "broke". One of the bumper keys fell off and I panicked. I called a repairman in Dallas and left on a 5.5 hour trip one way. On the way I went to get a tea from McDonald's to help me wake up. I was feeling tired and I ended up hesitantly buying a fried chicken meal, as they had no grilled chicken on the menu, or did they? I didn't have my glasses on and felt rushed to purchased something quick as the line in the drive thru was long. I also drove passed the sign just enough in the drive thru where I was nearly screaming at the mic for her to hear me, shouting out my order for all to hear, so asking questions seemed embarrassing, so I kept the order quick and short. I forgot to ask to replace the fries with something else too. Then I pulled up to the pick up window and she tells me that they don't have tea ( a necessity in staying awake on the 11 hour trip that I started at 2 pm) so I order a large coffee. Not something I normally like black, so she puts sugar and cream in it and that might be the reason for my "fall" yesterday. Like a domino effect, when I have a rare but needed coffee, the next day, I need that coffee again. When I got home, I was SOOO strict the following day (Tuesday) and when Wednesday came, I was RAVISHED that morning. I believe it was the McDonalds. What was in that food???? Seriously. Was it the coffee, the french fries or the bun on the chicken sandwich?
Today, after I weighed myself, I made all the beds, I started 3 loads of laundry today. I ate my JC breakfast and I am about to take a walk. I am at peace today. So I can forgive myself for one Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. I don't want TWO Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Days. Today feels different... it really does. No more McDonalds for me.
Have a Wonderful, Fabulous, Beautifully Perfect, Very Good Day.