One IS the loneliest number
Sunday, May 23, 2021
Wife went through rehab after her fall. Her dementia is much worse so the facility has decided that she will be staying there. The cost of nursing having her at home would eat up our house and everything else I can visit her whenever I want and have been bringing her home cooked meals but it is not the same.
I have just about had the whole house rehabbed so I hopefully won't have many "surprises" in the near future. I have been cutting and splitting firewood for next winter to keep me busy when I am not downsizing the contents of the house.
The one thing that has fallen by the wayside is healthy eating,. I have been mostly eating salads or peanut butter and crackers. I think I am helping to keep the peanut farmers in business as I go through a jar a week.
The dog has adjusted better than I have to our new living situation. If it weren't for her I think I would have given up on going on this way.
She is always happy and perks me up plus the responsibility of feeding, walking etc. keeps me grounded. She stays tied up in the yard while I am cutting and splitting wood. The noise keeps the coyotes on the town property as they won't come any closer. This has been their way for 5 years now which makes the dog and me more comfortable. The coyotes bring their pups along and they seem to be content to lie there all day and watch us,. When the machinery is turned off I bring the dog in as I am not too trusting of a group of them. They wander around the property at night drinking the water in the bird bath and teasing my dog as she will bark when they come.
We each have our ways of coping with what life brings us.
I have had a local man carting stuff to the dump and he has so far taken 3 six wheeler dump trucks full and will be back tomorrow. Most of my wife's possessions are boxed up, labeled and stored on pallets in the basement as I am not sure what the future holds.
The one thing that surprised me was that I don't mind not having people around. I got a taste of being somewhat of a hermit and I enjoy it, at least in the short term.
Spark people has provided me with a non-judgemental community and for that I am grateful.