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I am failing

Sunday, December 09, 2007

So I realize that my blogs have yet to be optimistic but I cant help but feel like I am really failing here. I feel like every relationship in my life is deteriorating because I am so overwhelmed with being a mother to two children so close in age that I can't devote any time to anyone else. Today I get two angry emails... one from a woman from my moms group whom I forgot to attend her christmas party which I had rsvp'd yes for (oops... totally slipped my mind,) and the second (and this is the really bad one on my part) from one of my best friends whom I forgot their birthday (it was in November!!!) Needless to say it put me to tears, because I just can't do it. I am so stressed with just surviving the day that I am completely unable to remember anything else. By the end of the day my chest is so tight I can barely breath because I am so overwhelmed.

Ok, I realize this has nothing to do with loosing weight, but its all relative. And here I am, writing a blog when I should be doing something else... like remembering important things.
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  • SEMPER_APRICIS
    You already are remember the important things! Please don't beat yourself up about forgetting those things. Your friends shouldn't be doing that, either. Instead, they should realize that it's uncharacteristic of you, that you might be overwhelmed, and offer help!

    It sounds to me like your priorities are exactly right. I know how overwhelming everything can feel--I have two kids very close in age, too. But this shall soon pass, and we'll be glad we did in the end! Now about this weight, we all just started and together we'll get it done, eventually!
    4941 days ago
  • BRIGHTBOW
    Aw, those angry emails are not your fault Samantha! My goodness, they should give you a break and realize you JUST HAD A BABY. Seriously, would you expect a friend with a newborn to remember your birthday? (Especially a friend with a newborn and a toddler?) While my situation and yours are similar, they're not the same, but I do go through a lot of the same feelings you write about. Today my dd didn't want me to pick her up from the nursery and only went with me when I asked her if she wanted to go see daddy. This is actually kind of consistent for her, but it makes me feel so bad! But I'm not failing, and neither are you. Things will get better in time.
    4941 days ago
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