I am failing
Sunday, December 09, 2007
So I realize that my blogs have yet to be optimistic but I cant help but feel like I am really failing here. I feel like every relationship in my life is deteriorating because I am so overwhelmed with being a mother to two children so close in age that I can't devote any time to anyone else. Today I get two angry emails... one from a woman from my moms group whom I forgot to attend her christmas party which I had rsvp'd yes for (oops... totally slipped my mind,) and the second (and this is the really bad one on my part) from one of my best friends whom I forgot their birthday (it was in November!!!) Needless to say it put me to tears, because I just can't do it. I am so stressed with just surviving the day that I am completely unable to remember anything else. By the end of the day my chest is so tight I can barely breath because I am so overwhelmed.
Ok, I realize this has nothing to do with loosing weight, but its all relative. And here I am, writing a blog when I should be doing something else... like remembering important things.