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Tuesday, March 05, 2019      3 comments

I'm really down. I am considering making food and exercise and fitness my main motivators in life. I don't feel like I have them right now since depression and bad habits have removed my interests in anything.... Read more
Fearful but ready
Thursday, December 28, 2017      2 comments

I'm fearful but ready to start my weight-loss journey again. This time I want to think about my journey as developing habits to help myself mentally and emotionally.... Read more
Hiatus Over. Coming Back Out of the Cave.
Saturday, September 20, 2014      9 comments

Hello, all of my millions of fans worldwide (how's that for grandiosity), I'm back again to using SparkPeople as a source of support in this health journey. I am in a lot of pain since I am enduring the aftermath of a breakup with a g... Read more
New Insight into Food Control
Wednesday, July 02, 2014      4 comments

Hi, all, Here's what I've been thinking regarding food: I accept the fact that yes, I really am a food addict. Or compulsive overeater. I'm not really sure of the difference. In any case, there are certain foods that I consider that... Read more
Thoughts: weight loss, control, emotions
Tuesday, June 03, 2014      3 comments

I had a sudden awareness today that there are no guarantees--there is no guarantee if I get down to goal weight (125) that my life will all of a sudden turn around--that I will finally consistently feel peaceful, content, connected, secure, and ... Read more
Today's Footwork
Thursday, May 29, 2014      4 comments

I am caught in being obsessed with becoming AMAZING looking to the point where I feel completely ashamed of what I look like right now. I weigh around 150, and at 5'3", that's actually not terrible. But I feel so bloated and puffy that I just ... Read more
Today So Far (Tuesday, 5/20/14)
Tuesday, May 20, 2014      8 comments

Welp, I'm doing okay so far today. Food--I've eaten the appropriate amount of calories so far, and I've eaten healthy foods that can be considered "clean." Water--a bit behind. I just stopped typing to chug down ten gulps. WOOHOO!!! ... Read more
Humbly Grateful to be Back on Track
Wednesday, May 07, 2014      7 comments

I feel profoundly grateful that my sanity has returned after my 4-day relapse. The first day back was tough--facing the reality that I was indeed still susceptible to using food to escape emotions. During the relapse, I was miserable: tota... Read more
Today so far (5/6/14)
Tuesday, May 06, 2014      4 comments

Today I've been eating almost the things I'm supposed to. I'm supposed to eat eggs and turkey sausage in the morning. I overslept and was late to work and so I'll have to make up protein later today after work. Today is my "off" day for e... Read more
Quotes That I Love But am Moving From My SparkPage
Tuesday, May 06, 2014      1 comments

Time for new quotes on the SparkPage . . . here are the old ones: GETTING FIT IS HARD. BEING FAT IS HARD. CHOOSE YOUR HARD. The food you eat can be either the safest & most powerful form of medicine or the slowest form of poiso... Read more
Perfectionism Quote by Coach Nicole
Friday, May 02, 2014      5 comments

Perfectionism has no place in the weight-loss journey. --Coach Nicole (Well, at least that was the gist of the quote if it wasn't word for word.) ... Read more
Just Ate a Fast-food Combo Meal
Friday, May 02, 2014      3 comments

Hey, everybody, I had completed my day of eating, exercising, and food tracking today within my calorie and macronutrient (protein, carbs, & fat) ranges. At around midnight, I struggled with feeling SO hungry. I was also tired, and so... Read more
Why am I Doing All of This?
Monday, April 21, 2014      2 comments

Working out six days a week, twice a day three of those days. Drinking 12-18 cups of water a day. Eating very "clean" and tracking my food daily. To what end am I doing all this? Let's see . . . I want to be a role model for ... Read more
Next Goal!
Monday, March 17, 2014      6 comments

Hey, y'all, It's been EIGHT YEARS since I've posted in this blog. Okay, maybe not eight years, but it's been a long time. Here's my deal: I've gotten under 150--CANNOT BELIEVE IT. My next goal is to compete in one bodybuilding c... Read more
About the Scale Not being the Only Measure of Physical Success
Monday, January 20, 2014      6 comments

I didn't make my weight goal this six weeks. I'm at 155 pounds, and my goal was to be 152 by today. I'm feeling disappointed and bummed. I have been almost perfectly on track with my daily calories, macronutrients, and workouts. (O... Read more

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